P
pinkster
Guest
felt like disappearing? Consider this a vent.
I've been having problems at work for the last 6 months, and now it's really starting to bother me. I suppose I let it spiral out of control, but I really did search for a way to solve things. I started feeling like no one was talking to me or starting convo's with me, so I stopped starting them. I found out quickly that, really, no one did start convo's with me. I also found out that people tune me out pretty quickly, cause I'd ask a q and they'd still nod their head as if they were listening. So I gave up on making sure I had good relationships with my co-workers. I felt violated, I guess. I try really hard not to feel like every hearing person is against me, I can now see why its so easy to think that.
So Im being the nosey me, and I decide to go through the "sent" box at work. (Hey its available to anyone.) And I found an email my co-worker sent to the owner, and part of it talked of me...
"We're having problems again w/Jamie. She does a lot of wandering around not working. Both Shayna and Shannon have talked to her about it. She continues. It's pissing basement staff off pretty bad. The last episode was that shes bitching about nobody tubing. So I went against my Doctor's orders and packed 12 bags in one day. We were getting ready for the sale. Jamie had a tiny cut on her thumb and complained that she couldnt tube. So she didnt. I consequently blew out my shoulder so the sale was excruciatingly painful trying to lug hooks and product around. (This is the only time i've complained.) Im about ready to say something to her but its not my place. Please advise."
First off, Im highly offended but ya'll know I wont say anything to them cause I shouldnt have snooped.
But For the record, Shayna is the payroll/human resource lady and Shannon is a manager i used to work for but then i took over half of her job and became assistant manager.
So I do not 'wander.' I drift from one job to another, I do many things at once. Sometimes I look confused cause I cant remember what I was doing. Shayna nor Shannon have spoke to me about this, so shes lying. This "last episode" was when I commented on how shannon wanted something process before the sale with "NO EXCUSES" and everyone had to do it, I simply mentioned it to another manager cause people werent seeing the note. And this "tiny cut" she claims I had, was actually on my hand, at the base of my thumb where it creases, and i nicked it on the wooden banister coming downstairs from Megladon's room. It hurt like fucking hell cause the pole was split open and I ran my hand into it full speed, when I showed it to this person writing the email, she said ow that must have really hurt. And i was telling her how it burned, especially when I biked, and i HAD to bike, I didnt wanna miss school. When I asked Shayna if I could be excused from tubing because of it, she gave me this look like "are you kidding me?" We talked for like 2 mins and i said fuck it i'll just do it. I did 4 bags worth then called it quits (another lie of hers, she said i didnt do it at all.)
So, Im mad about that, im so mad I cant write my paper for school on gender roles, cause all I want to do is write about how shitty my job is. On top of all that, Shannon treats me like dirt and everyone knows it. I ask a simple question, and its not so much her answer in words, but her attitude to me that really bugs me. Its like, I shouldnt have bothered to ask, even if it was a legitimate question. The list goes on, with several of my co-workers. Either i'll get written up or fired..
In conclusion of my complanative post, I just want to disappear. You know how we're moving? Well I thought of moving away and just quitting my job, finding a new one and disappearing. But I know what will happen is I'll move, then i'll find another job. I hate being angry, it puts a strain on all aspects of my life.
Thanks for reading my vent, but :gives: i guess. =/
I've been having problems at work for the last 6 months, and now it's really starting to bother me. I suppose I let it spiral out of control, but I really did search for a way to solve things. I started feeling like no one was talking to me or starting convo's with me, so I stopped starting them. I found out quickly that, really, no one did start convo's with me. I also found out that people tune me out pretty quickly, cause I'd ask a q and they'd still nod their head as if they were listening. So I gave up on making sure I had good relationships with my co-workers. I felt violated, I guess. I try really hard not to feel like every hearing person is against me, I can now see why its so easy to think that.
So Im being the nosey me, and I decide to go through the "sent" box at work. (Hey its available to anyone.) And I found an email my co-worker sent to the owner, and part of it talked of me...
"We're having problems again w/Jamie. She does a lot of wandering around not working. Both Shayna and Shannon have talked to her about it. She continues. It's pissing basement staff off pretty bad. The last episode was that shes bitching about nobody tubing. So I went against my Doctor's orders and packed 12 bags in one day. We were getting ready for the sale. Jamie had a tiny cut on her thumb and complained that she couldnt tube. So she didnt. I consequently blew out my shoulder so the sale was excruciatingly painful trying to lug hooks and product around. (This is the only time i've complained.) Im about ready to say something to her but its not my place. Please advise."
First off, Im highly offended but ya'll know I wont say anything to them cause I shouldnt have snooped.
But For the record, Shayna is the payroll/human resource lady and Shannon is a manager i used to work for but then i took over half of her job and became assistant manager. So I do not 'wander.' I drift from one job to another, I do many things at once. Sometimes I look confused cause I cant remember what I was doing. Shayna nor Shannon have spoke to me about this, so shes lying. This "last episode" was when I commented on how shannon wanted something process before the sale with "NO EXCUSES" and everyone had to do it, I simply mentioned it to another manager cause people werent seeing the note. And this "tiny cut" she claims I had, was actually on my hand, at the base of my thumb where it creases, and i nicked it on the wooden banister coming downstairs from Megladon's room. It hurt like fucking hell cause the pole was split open and I ran my hand into it full speed, when I showed it to this person writing the email, she said ow that must have really hurt. And i was telling her how it burned, especially when I biked, and i HAD to bike, I didnt wanna miss school. When I asked Shayna if I could be excused from tubing because of it, she gave me this look like "are you kidding me?" We talked for like 2 mins and i said fuck it i'll just do it. I did 4 bags worth then called it quits (another lie of hers, she said i didnt do it at all.)
So, Im mad about that, im so mad I cant write my paper for school on gender roles, cause all I want to do is write about how shitty my job is. On top of all that, Shannon treats me like dirt and everyone knows it. I ask a simple question, and its not so much her answer in words, but her attitude to me that really bugs me. Its like, I shouldnt have bothered to ask, even if it was a legitimate question. The list goes on, with several of my co-workers. Either i'll get written up or fired..
In conclusion of my complanative post, I just want to disappear. You know how we're moving? Well I thought of moving away and just quitting my job, finding a new one and disappearing. But I know what will happen is I'll move, then i'll find another job. I hate being angry, it puts a strain on all aspects of my life.
Thanks for reading my vent, but :gives: i guess. =/
cool, eh?
