Cookie Monster said:LieblingDarling,
To give closure on your pain and others, you can plant a small tree or a small flowerbed and name it "Rudi's place". It can be a small cluster of flowers that Rudi liked to smell or grow. Plant that in your backyard or front yard and it is a nice memory to look at, nurture and let it grow. We do it with our loved ones that passes on. We plant flowers and trees, we've got quite a collection of those and they are beautiful. It gives us closure on our pain when we know we can see how beautiful the plants, trees and flowers grow with our love and care. Just a thought. *hugs and sending thoughts your way*
I agree with cookie monster. we did plant a tree in honor for our grandfather when he died from lung cancer in '97 with close family members. It did help a lot.