Had suicidal thoughts before?

^Angel^ said:
I had no idea, I thought you and your mom lives alone, this is the first time I heard about this....I'm sorry that this had happened to you, and I'm also sorry that your mom is unable to leave him....

I used to be in your mom's shoes where I thought I couldn't possible raises 3 children on my own and paying the bills by myself, but I had to think of my children first than worry about whether I would make it or not on my own, sometimes your mom would be surprise to see how many single moms out there really made it on their own without any help, and I am impressed that they haven't give up even when life gets a bit hard sometimes.....

I know your mom may be scared of what it like to be on her own, but sometimes it works for the best and things do get better later on....
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yea thats right... also remmy lil boy story on lifetime recenlty... so i told mom to watch that movie... i tried give her hint idea about me been suffer grow up all life cuz of stepfather touched me.. but mom didnt woke up yet when she watched that movie.. sigh... well i dont tell ppl about my life.. cuz of i thought people dont care abt my life.. so i finally vent here with my real cry while i type here sigh...
 
BabyAngel said:
I am really sorry to hear about that, but I would feel really happy for you when you get your own place so you don't have to worry about your stepfather.
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yea i will be happy get out of here... i cant wait! true i wont be worry abt him anymore...
 
TweetyBird said:
yea thats right... also remmy lil boy story on lifetime recenlty... so i told mom to watch that movie... i tried give her hint idea about me been suffer grow up all life cuz of stepfather touched me.. but mom didnt woke up yet when she watched that movie.. sigh... well i dont tell ppl about my life.. cuz of i thought people dont care abt my life.. so i finally vent here with my real cry while i type here sigh...
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Aww :hug: I understand....
 
Mama2AFTIV said:
She won't leave because she love his prick???? OH GRIEF!

I agreed with you to back off and let her go. *sigh*

True, just let her go and she decide what she wanted to do. :hug:
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hahahahahaha nope.. they not sex that much.. cuz of he work 12 hrs 7 days... oh well... u are soo silly! :lol:
 
^Angel^ said:
Aww :hug: I understand....
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thanks... :hug: if if he touch me, i have ready baseball bat here.. i dont play game!!!! i am serious...



let me tell u what... last yr in march, he made me so angry and fed up with him shyt... cuz of my mom almost bought me new 2005 blue car but he blah to her and turned down.. her money not his money!!!! cuz of she won from caniso and earn money to bought me car for my bday.. so somehow he got me piss off and my mom was in kitchen, i lost my mind and hitted his right eye and he lost balance, my mom saw whole it... my hands were shake and sooo mad! so mom pulled me in my room, calmed me down... first time hitted him in 25 yrs that i been suffer!!!! so he got black eye for one week.. after that he not talk me that much.. leave me alone...
 
TweetyBird said:
thanks... :hug: if if he touch me, i have ready baseball bat here.. i dont play game!!!! i am serious...



let me tell u what... last yr in march, he made me so angry and fed up with him shyt... cuz of my mom almost bought me new 2005 blue car but he blah to her and turned down.. her money not his money!!!! cuz of she won from caniso and earn money to bought me car for my bday.. so somehow he got me piss off and my mom was in kitchen, i lost my mind and hitted his right eye and he lost balance, my mom saw whole it... my hands were shake and sooo mad! so mom pulled me in my room, calmed me down... first time hitted him in 25 yrs that i been suffer!!!! so he got black eye for one week.. after that he not talk me that much.. leave me alone...
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:jaw: Wow, I will remind myself never push your buttons.... :giggle:
 
^Angel^ said:
:jaw: Wow, I will remind myself never push your buttons.... :giggle:
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hahahahha u make me laugh with smile!!!!! :D i know u are soo sweet! i wont do that!
 
:giggle: Sure why not! You need to cheer up somehow! :hug: :hug:
TweetyBird said:
hahahahahaha nope.. they not sex that much.. cuz of he work 12 hrs 7 days... oh well... u are soo silly! :lol:
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WHOO WHOO, GIRL! You gave him black eye! HE ASKED FOR IT!!!


*giving ya a high five*

TweetyBird said:
thanks... :hug: if if he touch me, i have ready baseball bat here.. i dont play game!!!! i am serious...



let me tell u what... last yr in march, he made me so angry and fed up with him shyt... cuz of my mom almost bought me new 2005 blue car but he blah to her and turned down.. her money not his money!!!! cuz of she won from caniso and earn money to bought me car for my bday.. so somehow he got me piss off and my mom was in kitchen, i lost my mind and hitted his right eye and he lost balance, my mom saw whole it... my hands were shake and sooo mad! so mom pulled me in my room, calmed me down... first time hitted him in 25 yrs that i been suffer!!!! so he got black eye for one week.. after that he not talk me that much.. leave me alone...
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Oh my dear... I can´t beleive after read the whole posts here... :( You all have my :hug:

Rebelgirl, I had the feeling after read your first post that it´s paxil anti-depression drugs, you took... Right? If yes, I thought so because paxil is very dangerous and could get people aggressive and commit sucidee.

Cheri & Rebelgirl, I can image how you feel after witnessed your ex-bf in bed with other girls.. It must be awful shock for you both... :( :hug:

Tweentybirdie, I can´t beleive after read your post that step-dad come first to your mother before you... I would not do that because my children come first. I can´t beleive your mother do that to you... Why can´t the Staff do something like report to CPS then they can file a lawsuit against your step-dad. Your mother has a low self-esteem... I´m sorry to tell this to you about your mother... I feel bad for you how you suffer... I know what it´s alike because I had been through with step-dad but he didn´t touch my part but force us to take off our clothes for him to watch us and play himself... He also forced us to watch him sex with my mom... It´s bad experience for me, Sue & Mike. I can understand how you feel after read your posts... You have my :hug:
 
Liebling:-))) said:
Tweentybirdie, I can´t beleive after read your post that step-dad come first to your mother before you... I would not do that because my children come first. I can´t beleive your mother do that to you... Why can´t the Staff do something like report to CPS then they can file a lawsuit against your step-dad. Your mother has a low self-esteem... I´m sorry to tell this to you about your mother... I feel bad for you how you suffer... I know what it´s alike because I had been through with step-dad but he didn´t touch my part but force us to take off our clothes for him to watch us and play himself... He also forced us to watch him sex with my mom... It´s bad experience for me, Sue & Mike. I can understand how you feel after read your posts... You have my :hug:
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i uddy what ur point are... i dont blame u for say that.. i am sowwy abt ur step dad forced u and ur sister off clothes thats so sicko! what did ur mom do??
 
First of all you have my :hug: I feel bad for you after read those post... :(

^Angel^ said:
Oh yeah, I had commit suicide while I was still in high school and during my marriage also...

During my high school years there were so many things going on, my parents divorce, my real mom beaten us, a friend from my class killed himself, my ex bf broke my heart, it was just too much to deal with, so I was feeling so depressed to the point where I didn't want to live no more.....While my real mom was working, and my sister Cheri went off with a friend to church, and it was a perfect time for me to do it, so I went in the kitchen, took out the electric knife, and put the two sharp knife in the electric machine, plug it in the bathroom and pressed the electric knife on my left arm, and let it move back and fourth, but knife got a bit jammed up so I moved it to another area of my arm so I could cut myself even more, I end up slicing my skin 8 times in a row which I have 8 scars on my arm, and by the time Cheri arrived home, she was the one who grabbed it away and end up having her friend taking me to the hospital and end up having stitches....
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It sound to me that it´s `self-injury´, you made to get out of your pain feeling... Right? It´s difference between tempt commit suicide and self injury but your description match ´self-injury´.

During my trouble marriage, this happened after my second child, I came to the point where the abuse was getting too much, so I tried to hang myself in the bathroom shower but it rod fell off, wasn't strong enough to hold....I tried to take a bottle of pills, but dump it out in the toliet, and I got tired of my ex husband kept calling me a bunch of fat names and etc, so I end up starving myself every day until every 7 th day, I would eat something little just to keep me going....I end up the hospital 3 times over that.....Then things changes later after seeing my second son hidding in the closet when my ex husband throw his temper around, and the abuse was getting out of control, so I stop feeling sorry for myself and do something about it, instead of sitting around being depressed, and trying to end my life without thinking how my kids will live without their mother, all those questions were running through my mind, so I stop being depressed about how things are going around in my life knowing that life can get tough sometimes, and there are other ways to make your life better without having to end your life....I put my children first, and start working on becoming stronger person and be able to leave without looking back, so I did....And now I'm the happiest woman who has a great relationship with someone who is such a gentleman, and I have my beautiful sons to raises and to be there for them whatever they need me....
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I´m really glad that you survived after tempt commit suicide. Sue should take the example of you like what I said in my thread. :(

Yes, I´m really happy for you to find someone special who fulfil your love and warm... You deserve to be happy...
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What should I share my experience with you all here because I haven´t done like this before...
 
TweetyBird said:
i uddy what ur point are... i dont blame u for say that.. i am sowwy abt ur step dad forced u and ur sister off clothes thats so sicko! what did ur mom do??
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Nothing but she´s scared of him because he beat her up... He was arrested for bank robbery and put jail for 10 years then my mom divorced him when he was in jail.
 
Liebling:-))) said:
What should I share my experience with you all here because I haven´t done like this before...
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Me either, but I saw the others did, so I said why not :lol:

Get it all out girl, then you will feel better once you do, if you're not ready, then don't because you can only do this if you're really ready to....


No one gonna to judge ya cause I won't :hug:
 
Liebling:-))) said:
Yes, I´m really happy for you to find someone special who fulfil your love and warm... You deserve to be happy..
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Thanks sweetie! ;)
 
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