deafie_cat
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I started losing my hearing when I was around 13, and it really sucks. Now that I'm almost 18 and have been trying to function as a hearing person etc since I have been 5 (when it first dropped, though not as much as it did in the past while).. and it is really not fun. I love music, I love talking to people (but lately it's getting harder to talk to people) and hearing aids help enough that I can function and listen to music but that's it. My social life has suffered horribly, not because I'm some kind of antisocial-self-pitier, but because I can't hear people and get nervous when someone tries to talk to me. I'm feeling really, literally caught in two worlds because I'm expected to function in one and I'm being dragged down into the other.
I guess I have to either find some miraculous way of improving my hearing, or accepting the fact that I'm hoh.. or I guess deaf. (not that there's anything wrong with being deaf, but being caught between two worlds makes you feel like your ripping apart) I'm trying hard to be positive about this but it's hard to find support.. people just don't get it. I'm sure it's even worse for those of you with worse hearing than I have.
I just don't know what to do :\
I guess I have to either find some miraculous way of improving my hearing, or accepting the fact that I'm hoh.. or I guess deaf. (not that there's anything wrong with being deaf, but being caught between two worlds makes you feel like your ripping apart) I'm trying hard to be positive about this but it's hard to find support.. people just don't get it. I'm sure it's even worse for those of you with worse hearing than I have.
I just don't know what to do :\