alone... a vent

darkangel8603

darkangel8603

New Member
Joined
Jul 29, 2004
Messages
1,433
Reaction score
0
Lately I felt so alone here and depressed.

My best friend had abandoned me for another best friend, and i noticed that last week. It broke my heart, because i had known her for 7 years, we had been best friends for 7 whole years. Now she has a new best friend, but i never really thought of her new best friend to be more closer with her than me, til i relized recently. it hurt me. Now i have nobody to hang out with and actually be good friends with someone. Everybody never liked me for who i am. I am always having to put different faces to let other be friendly with me. I am sick of it. All my life i had always went through this. Being best friend or good friend with someone who thinks someone else is betterthan me. I am always having to compete for my friendship. I am sick of it. I wish she would realize how much i went through for her, i did many things for her, and what do i get in return, this piece of crap. I am sick of it.
 
Personally, I think you don't need a friend like that... the moment you "have" to compete for your friend's affections and attention, is the moment your friend ceased being your true friend. I am sorry about that. I hope you will consider being the real yourself, because you deserve to have others liking you for who you are. Keep on talking :)
 
Liza's right. I'm sorry you had to experience that, darkangel.

I had to snatch my own poem from a sacred forum I frequent all the time where I feel so safe to share my poetry.

I hope you can get some resolution about your feelings from this poem that I did.

"Just how many best friends can we have in a lifetime?"

There's one for shopping and to share about the lastest fashion & hairstyles,
A best friend to take with you to the movies and munch forever on popcorn & swap gossip about Hollywood,
A best friend for you to cry your sore heart out when you just can't do anything right,
One for you to share your inner-most secrets & fears and know she will never tell a soul.
A best friend you can giggle & laugh so hard, your nose snorts and she smiles ever so fondly at you.
A best friend for you to share catty remarks with because that's what best friends do best!
A best friend for you to take to the ballet when DH begs not to go.
A best friend for you to ask honestly "Am I fat?" and your best friend will honestly give you the truth as it is because she loves you.
There's a best friend for each stage of life and that's the beauty of having a best friend to share with the miracles of life.

This is for all the best friends in my past, present and in my future.

_\m/
 
Liza said it all, You don't deserve that kind of friend. And screw everyone else who wants you to pretend to be someone you are not, and doesn't like the real you. Just be yourself, your true self! You'll find some new friends who would accept who you are. Don't be too down on yourself. Sometimes friends come and go (Those aren't your true friends), In the meantime You'll find someone special that you would hang out with. (Never know a nice young gentleman would grab your heart!) ;) Think positive and it would come true. :hug:


By the way nice poem there CookieMonster, Can I steal it? hehehe :ily:
 
awwwww darkangel.....you sound like you're going through what I went through last year with Dani and OB and them.....I know how it is.....it seemed like I had a lot of friends, but the relationship quality was really kinda superfical....It still hurts like hell that Dani and OB didn't want to be friends anymore....so I know 100% what you're going through.....
 
I agree with Liza and the rest....Just be yourself, and soon enough you will have new friends ;)
 
I'm sorry that u went thru that sour stuff. I have been thru that several times, plenty of friends have anaboned me and moved on for no reason, I haven't done anything wrong. The thing is that true friends are hard to find nowadays, which is sad.

Friendship isn't based on competition, it's based on accepting who they are, no matter what it is. Let them go and take your time to try find someone who will accept friendship based on love, sharing, everything...

Hope this helps.
 
awww look at us, we are your friends from alldeaf!!! :D Liza is right abt that... :hug:
 
i have lost alot of *untrusted* friends and I don't bother whine about losing a friends cuz i know that they are not my true friends why i bother to think about it.. They would regert it later maybe in 10 years and you might want to let them talk or jealous on you.. just let them.. they will end up and sunk it themself. Making a new friends alway better but again don't make it too much or you will sunk yourself.

Making 2 or 3 new friends and hang out with them 1 time a month and it will light your shoulders trust me that one.
 
First of all, I'm very sorry and understand how hurt feeling you have. You doesn't deserve to have kind of friend like her.

Yes I'm agree with anyone here... I do not need to add extra on my post here.. All what I want to say is:

ACCEPT yourself - Why should you change it because your "best friend" don't like what you are...? You know yourself that she is not your true friend.

Important is STAY what you are - not change anything for anyone when you feel like about yourself.


Nice peom, CM... :thumb:
 
You'll be fine. Just move on, and sooner or later, when you least expect it you'll gain a friend here and there.

I lost a lot of so-called friends in the last year. I learned they rather believe rumors and not accept me for who I am. I never pretended to be someone else that I'm not. I learned a lot, and I feel so much more comfortable in my own skin being who I am.

I'm fortunate that I still have the same best friend that I've had since high school. We never pretended to be someone else. It's funny, we both have a peeve of "fakes" -- and we both learned this quickly during h.s. I think that's what made our friendship strong even through we only see each other perhaps twice a year, if we're lucky. (She's in Vegas, and I in San Diego).

I rather have 1 or 2 wonderful, supportive friends in my life than hundreds of "flakes" in my life. It took me a long time to accept, because I did used to think that it's better to have so many people around you. But really it isn't, usually... as sometimes that does cause some unnecessary friction in your life. That's not fun at all.

I usually spend my time alone. It does have its pros. It gives you time to think about yourself, and take care of yourself. And then you can go out and "bump" into whoever is out there unintentionally. It's pretty cool. Not that I'm advocating that you should spend your time alone, but that's just my own personal opinion. Smile. *Hugs*
 
Hey guys.
I avoided her almost allday today. She probably doesn't even noticed that i was not happy. but anyway i bumped into the other friend of her that i thought was stealing her away from me. I chatted with him (the other friend) and he expressed to me that he was feeling almost the same thing, and stuff with her as i am. So we both realized alot. We had a long chat and stuff, so now i think i will be ok, i don't know waht to do about my friend, but i will just get on with my life and stuff.

Alot of you say that i should not put a second face or pretend to be who i am. I often don't do that, but i just said that cuz it describe how i feel etc. Usually i am my own self lol. But it just seems that my real personality tend to clashe with other's. Oh well.

Thanks for your comments and supports. :)
 
:hug: I'm glad it all worked out for you!

You're welcome to snatch my poem, Cheri!! :ily:

Thanks everyone who commented on my poem.
 
DarkAngel..

Yeah which the best... Let it go! Will come and around best day for you.. Don't worry about your best friend..

I've used to be in my past long years ago and used to be best friend and anymore.. which good reason.. I still fine.. I'm still here.. Anyway.. *wink* You're still young fine woman and think about your bright future.. don't worry about old ones..
 
darkangel,

I had "friends" that I hung around with since 1991...providing I agreed with them and went and associated with their churches...yes, it's a group of people who are fundamentalists in their faith, but with reckless abandon if you disagreed with them even on one point. These kind of people, I was working at being in the ministry and have been in it...until they notified a college I was attending and stirred up trouble, getting me booted out, "never to be allowed back" kind of trouble. Very mean and untrue things were said about me and, needless to say, there still is some anger. However, I'm getting over it, though these people will have an awful price to pay, as my checkbook and wallet are now closed to them and they can't ask me for financial help period. Yes, we had a fallout and I felt the same way you did...as if you've wasted your time and energy and resources. It's understandable. Soo...I guess what I'm trying to tell you is you need to go on with your life, as I am and, of course, pay attention to the others, as they know more about the situation than I do. Above all else, just a phrase from, I believe AA..."To Thine Own Self Be True."
 
Back
Top