Well, if you don't mind me asking I wonder what kind of hearing loss do you suffer. You seem to be very similar to me, which is sensori-neural loss, progressive.
I am scared of what the future holds honestly, the surgery, weither or not it will work, what the CI sounds like and etc. I do not like the unknown.
You know what I don't know either but I am hopeful by all those who posted in the "CI Moments thread.
http://www.alldeaf.com/hearing-aids-cochlear-implants/42920-ci-moments.html
But this would be my line of thinking:- Will the surgery work or not? Most CI surgeries are successful meaning the surgery per se is not a complicated surgery, can be done outpatient even, I've heard. You must rememeber to get bacterial menigitis vaccination prior to surgery.
After surgery you will have to wait some time for activation and mapping but about this someone who's got CI will explain better. That probably will go rather smoothly too.
Will the results of surgery be what you'd wish to be?
That is rather impossible to say, I'm afraid but we can speculate a bit that if you can hear pretty well with your HAs - if you have decent word and sentences cognizance then I hope it would be more like being late deafened than being just deaf without prior speech cognizance. Then again you probaly shouldn't exclude possibility of having to work a lot toward achieving good sounds understanding with your CI anyway.
But considering that you are mostly in the hearing world and being able to hear is very important to you, I think you would be very motivated toward that.
Nobody likes the uknown - this too stops me from getting CI tomorrow. But one must calculate calmly the options, also.
If hearing is so important to you, then what choices do you have.
It probably would be either to try to exist with one HA, if the hearing loss in the other ear is permanent indeed or enhance your lost hearing with CI..
Or you can look into switching to deaf ways, learn sing language and start from here.
What is encouraging, your audiolgist seem to be quite knowledgeable on the subject, so if she says CI could help you it probably would.
As for the sound - I too would like to know how one does "hears" thru CI comparing to what he hear now, practically unaided -just having sound amplified. I was told it might be not what one heard before.
But then again, from what late deafened implantees wrote I have an impression it is not that much different as before. So that too is encouraging.
It would be a very good idea for you to read a book by Beverly Biderman:
Amazon.ca: Wired for Sound : A Journey Into Hearing: Books: Beverly Biderman
This is great, and simply written, insight into her journey into hearing word with CI.
keep in mind that she lost her hearing early, though. You probably wouldn't need anywhere that much time.
And last but not least - I can't remember the thread but it is mentioned somewhere here that contrary to the popular belief, one does NOT lose residual hearing with CI. but I don't know anything about that.
Fuzzy