deafness88
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Has anyone thought about this because you're either deaf or hard of hearing? What is the meaning of life? For those people with impairment, including myself, I have mild hearing impairment. I can hear everyday life conversations and a typical clock ticking from 4 meters a way. I found life is meaningless to me. My life is always down. Sometimes when someone is talking to me, I just smile back at them because I cannot hear what they are saying or I don't even smile sometimes because it might be a negative thing. Sometimes when people say Hi to me and I don’t reply back people think I am not a sociable person and not a great person to be with. "Treat others the way you want to be treated". This quote applies here. I have hearing loss since I was born. I have no close friends, and I don't speak to my parents a lot. I feel so isolated. I don’t even have one close friend. Everyone is just a regular person to me. I have completely nothing to live for. The only thing that keeps me going is that I’ll have to get a sports motorcycle in my life because I love riding bikes. I also don’t have any girl friends. Girls’ voice tends to be a little quieter, I have to focus really hard to pick up the sound and make it audible. Humans are social being, realizing that I have problems socializing with other human beings make my life no worth living. How can I live through life without socializing and building strong relationships? I know I cannot get very far in life like this. In work, I’ll probably won’t get very far in life knowing that I cannot speaker proficiently. This will depict that I am an unintelligent character. No matter where I go, what I do, the regular human beings will always be superior to me. I will always feel left behind and stupid. I want to be like everyone else, always talking, having a great time, expressing how they feel when they’re down and having people look up to you. I cannot express these problems to my friends. This will just matter matters worst. I know this through life experience. I noticed that because usually when I am with a group of friends, they tend to not to talk to me, not that because I am not their friend, it is because I do not talk a lot and I usually don’t say anything back to them. Telling them that I have hearing impairment will make the situation worst for me or it will not? I suppose that if I tell them, it is more likely it will make my life worst. People tend to be with people because they share the same things in common and they do the same things together. If I let them know that I have hearing impairment, I would feel more isolated then before because they will feel awkward being with a person that is different from them. So what can I do? I feel sad every night that this is a fact and I cannot change this. The only thing that I can do is to cry and think about it, which makes me feel life is not worth living.