smilyblue
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Hi,
Here to introduce myself to all.
I loss my hearing between the ages of 2-4 from some "unknown" origin; I spiked a temp of 106 before my dad took me to the ER. I was mainstreamed in the hearing schools. My mother never accepted my deafness and told me to stay away for "deaf" people because they were bad. I have very little hearing in my left and slightly better in the right. I currently wear bilateral BTEs.
It wasn't until I was in my 30s that I took a few ASL courses that I overcame the unwarranted fear of D/deaf people. Since I had to pretend that I was a hearie my whole life, I went on to become a paramedic hiding my hearing loss every way possible. So I guess I became good at lipreading, keeping my ears covered and bluffing. Now in my 40s and working as a nurse, I let as many people know about my deafness as possible. It's so nice not to hide it as much but I feel so tired. I can only assume from having been on high alert for so many years wore on me. I have an appointment with my ENT doctor in a couple weeks to explore why I have fluctuating hearing issues along with dizziness, nausea and high pitched sounds inside my ears...annoying much!!! Now I am thinking ahead career-wise in case something happens to what I have left for hearing.
Hope to connect with the many cool HOH, D/deaf people in this world...
Here to introduce myself to all.
I loss my hearing between the ages of 2-4 from some "unknown" origin; I spiked a temp of 106 before my dad took me to the ER. I was mainstreamed in the hearing schools. My mother never accepted my deafness and told me to stay away for "deaf" people because they were bad. I have very little hearing in my left and slightly better in the right. I currently wear bilateral BTEs.
It wasn't until I was in my 30s that I took a few ASL courses that I overcame the unwarranted fear of D/deaf people. Since I had to pretend that I was a hearie my whole life, I went on to become a paramedic hiding my hearing loss every way possible. So I guess I became good at lipreading, keeping my ears covered and bluffing. Now in my 40s and working as a nurse, I let as many people know about my deafness as possible. It's so nice not to hide it as much but I feel so tired. I can only assume from having been on high alert for so many years wore on me. I have an appointment with my ENT doctor in a couple weeks to explore why I have fluctuating hearing issues along with dizziness, nausea and high pitched sounds inside my ears...annoying much!!! Now I am thinking ahead career-wise in case something happens to what I have left for hearing.
Hope to connect with the many cool HOH, D/deaf people in this world...
to AllDeaf forum. So that is what your own mother lie to you about us, Deafies, that we are bad like a monsters. You are no different than any of us that had us to put up with our parents too. They want us to be like the hearing persons as they are ashamed of our deafness and refused to meet our needs as a deaf people. 
