Justify your sin

[The*Empress]

Yes, we have discussed this matter, her gossipping still going. Yes, as for me I have nothing hold against her, bec christ said forgive those who hurt u. Not I feel the "have to", but the spirit in me shown me the cross where christ has forgiven us since he bored all my sins upon himself as He forgiven me and knowing the spiritual battle I'm facing. Angry, resentment and hatred won't solve the problem. Its sense of cleansing. But God knows my heart, hehehe, no if u think I m angry anything by the way how I wrote of this issue, wrong idea, I wrote in very comforting and caring spirit. I m getting to see so many missing the point of my saying. Its ok, as paul wrote give one another in comfort and pray for one another. Now, scripture explains, if u see ur brother sin and u alone need to go to that person and pray for one another and should stay that way. Little house on the prairie is a very good example, are u like the oleson or ingalls, ingalls more as christ example even they made mistake, but oleson hurting the body of christ by telling everyone.

Just because she is gossiping about you, doesn't mean you should continue be gay...
I asked God to forgive me for all the wrong thing I have done... and I said to him that I am aware that I hurt many many many people.
And he understands how cruel some people can be and how I was treated
every since I was born with Treacher Collins Syndrome, people hurt me worst. And it is hard to be nice, it is soooo hard to be civilized.
I know that I am making an excuse, I get so tired of people being so unfair to me.... and I was so sweet to them, and they keep tearing me apart.
And that is why I got so upset and want to hurt people so bad back.

Right now I am tired of fighting with the world, and the world won't accept me as an ugly girl. I still hate the world.
It is sooo unfair. And people punish me harshly. Why?

I am always a nice girl, but when I wanted SSI, and they keep turning me down 20 times or more, I just wanted to stay at home and Social Security government told me I can go find work, but I don't want to go find work
and I don't want to go outside with my face all mess up...

Look at how my life was when I was at college, so why I wanna work with EVIL PEOPLE? :fu:

So finally I got my SSI, and my sister and my mom let me stay at home, cause they realized that the world is so cruel to me.

And this is my plan for now.

1. Stay at home and have a simple life
2. Keep shaving my head bald, cause I am too lazy to comb my hair.
3. Forget about men, no husband, cause men make life complicated.
4. No children, cause my Nephew was hard enough for me.
5. no more sex, because sex doesn't make me feel good and it is dumb.
6. go Vacation. maybe visit Iraq, Iran, and Israel to seek peace.
7. think about getting rid of the dog, because it is too much work.
8. no work, because people will bother me.
9. Keep guests and visitors away, since people aren't nice to me anyway.
10. Pay off college loans monthly $500.
11. Forget about films, recognitions aren't worth my time anyway.
12. eat/drink healthy, relax, use threadmill, no stress, keep praying to God.

I wonder if I can live to age 200 if I do these all the time.

 

[The*Empress]

Probably because those rescuers and doctors and other people you feel get recognicion for their acts and works aren't doing it as Christians. Your tenant as a Christian is to be humble and unworthy. You're not a Christian if you seek attention, Christ didn't seek recognicion he solely sought to spread the word.

If you didn't go around telling people they'll go to hell if they cheat and lie and steal, we probably would have LESS people cheating, lying and stealing because those people who claim to be and are trusted as Christians probably actually do most of the cheating, lying, and stealing. Just my opinion.

But why Christ got himself a donkey and rode around and have people bowing down to his feet? And people kept touching him so that they can heal? Why Mary kiss his feet and wipe his feet? That isn't a recognicion?

I go to Church sometimes, and Christians didn't tell me not to sin. I don't see any Christian stopping me and tell me I can't do this or that?
And I don't tell people that I have sin.

I don't understand why gay people go to church and tell somebody that they gay, that don't make sense. Why tell people for? And you think you won't face consequence for doing that.

There are some thing I won't ever ever ever tell people, I won't tell people if I do something horrible. No way.

I will only tell God all the bad things I have done... and that is all we need to do.

If I cheat, I won't tell anybody but God and the spouse.
Nobody has to tell you not to cheat, you know better than that.

 

[The*Empress]

YES, we are ALL sinners!!!!! Don't pick on us GLB folks for our alleged sin. Jesus Himself said that "He who is without sin, be the first to cast the first stone." That's Jesus.....the Man whose Teachings you follow!
Only God (or whoever's Up There) knows what is sin, and what's not sin. Us humans (unless in cases where it's blatently obvious, like murder, rape, child molestation etc) cannot know beforehand, what is a sin before God.

I wish to meet a rapist, murderer, and child molester... and others.
I want to talk to them. I won't hate them... or bash them.

I just want them to tell me why they do that? Why do they harm another human being?

We are all humans... and sinners... and I just want to talk to rapist, why he does that... and get in deep deep conversation with him.

I'm gonna talk to them the way I talk to gay people.

I hope the murderers, rapists, child molesters rebel against me
by harming more folks and being stubborn as you all are.

I just hope I can change them... I wish. I wish I can change the world
and stop all of these crimes and AIDS and all....

 

[hottiedeafboi]

No, its a loong story. All of this is not like ok fine, I be gay, no,no,no. Gay is my biggest battle since I was elementary school. I was married with a woman for 18 yrs, thru the marriage life, in laws severely dominate our marriage, deaf pastor is concerned about that bec knowing the battle I have and what may affect. But hearing pastor of the deaf pointing at me bec I'm a husband and do every way for the family, but interference is in laws which won't keep family together. Since all this is big challenge and lately God has shown me which all the hard challenge I made, I failed, but God is the God of 2nd chance. Many asked if I ever go to my ex to talk, and I said no, bec my ex wife's parents threaten her that she will lose everything if she sees me and my kids get punished. My ex wife do what they say. Doesn't matter how u see this circumstances. God works in people in different ways. Its awesome how I see, important is, let God show me each step. Yes, I forgiven them bec christ forgiven me. My ex wife and I chat secretly. I ve been told my ex is lonely, which I understood. Nothing I can do, bec my ex has to make a decision. But I'm not like a bigotry whatever I want bec that's not Gods way. Lately I see many doing to me for will cut down king david also. Like I said, I make long story short. Don't jump conclusion thinking how u view of my ways. Hehehehe no, I'm not mad at u. Its ok. Smile

 

[The*Empress]

you don't listen to anything I say, do you? it is always about you.

you think you the only one got a problem in life, and I have to suffer karma because you hate me because you are gay.

It isn't my fault.

 

[The*Empress]

why you let the devil tempted you and having you destroying your family and all?

You are so weak. We will never be happy on Earth. We are here to suffer.
And if you do sleep with a man, and then what? Happy forever? Facing consequences, that is what happen to Anthony Perkins, he threw away
his family and went ahead and do what he wanted to do...
And suffered Aids and died.
Jesus suffered and we have to suffer to, in order to go to Heaven.
God is testing us. And you lose... you won't ever go to Heaven now,
the Devil got your soul.

And the only way you can go to Heaven, if you go get your family and wife
back and get rid of those demons you have in you... And live right.

 

[Levonian]

Oh, you are talking to the ghost.

Don’t be silly—he can’t possibly be talking to a ghost. :roll: We all know that there’s no such thing as ghosts, because the bible sez so. And the bible can’t be wrong, because it is the word of the almighty Lord Himself. And we all know that the almighty Lord really exists, because if He doesn’t exist then I won’t get another silly little life after I die. And I can’t accept the reality that my consciousness will cease to exist when I die. So like all good Christians, I believe that if I can’t accept reality, then it can’t possibly be true. So there.

 

[deafdyke]

Really pek? Then how come even Christians can't agree 100% on what is sin? One sect may think that dancing is a sin, another thinks that not wearing haircoverings is a sin, another may think that drinking is a sin,.....matter of fact some VERY devout Catholics believe that certain sexual posistions are sins and so on. When people can't agree on what is sin or what God wants, then I gotta question people's assertains that sin is spelled out clearly in the Bible.

 

[hottiedeafboi]

why you let the devil tempted you and having you destroying your family and all?

You are so weak. We will never be happy on Earth. We are here to suffer.
And if you do sleep with a man, and then what? Happy forever? Facing consequences, that is what happen to Anthony Perkins, he threw away
his family and went ahead and do what he wanted to do...
And suffered Aids and died.
Jesus suffered and we have to suffer to, in order to go to Heaven.
God is testing us. And you lose... you won't ever go to Heaven now,
the Devil got your soul.

And the only way you can go to Heaven, if you go get your family and wife
back and get rid of those demons you have in you... And live right.

You sure didn't understand and listen to me. Satan can't touch my soul if christ once in me. More closer to God harder challenges I face, and I learned from that. No, my ex wife chose to follow her parents, bec if she doesn't do her parents way, she will lose everything. And that's include if I come back. All about me isn't the issue. I learned a lot from that. Without a doubt, u remind me of pharisees. If king david is alive today, u would tell king david exactly the way u said to me. Al thru the bible, especially in proverbs and psalms, if I deeply devote my God, I may fall, but not for long, God will left me up to keep going and also, if see ur brother fall many time, blessed is the man to bring him back. The way u are doing is nothing but casting stone. You never seen me in life and seen how much I shared the awesome what God has done in my life before things happen, there are some victories, till this is huge challenge I never met any deaf faces. I made a mistake, as of this point I began sense God is drawing me back. But now He is working in me, and show me every step of the way. Yes, others thinking that u think u are better than they, bec u go thru I made it, what wrong with you (ur saying). As God shown me, He forbid me for saying that, bec all christians face differently some success, some fail, but God works with them all. U judging by other peoples failure and cutting them down just like the pharisees. There is no exceptions God won't do. That's why the way u saying thing destroying other face and they condemn themselves. U have to go to God for what u need to see in peoples life, others and even myself face differenly in all kinds of circumstances. Missing all the point what others are saying. Forgive one another, pray for others to seek Gods guidance just like u pray for urself to seek Gods guidance. What u r saying is not of God

 

[MorriganTait]

Not all Christians think being gay is a sin. No justification needed.

 

[The*Empress]

But God didn't design you to have sex with other males, anus is for external only. That is why when I gotta bowel movement, I had to be careful
not to tore up my intestine or else I get hemorroid.

And my sister had anus sex, and she bled a lot and had to have surgery.

I am not putting you down, I'm just giving you the fact.

 

[MorriganTait]

But God didn't design you to have sex with other males, anus is for external only. That is why when I gotta bowel movement, I had to be careful
not to tore up my intestine or else I get hemorroid.

And my sister had anus sex, and she bled a lot and had to have surgery.

I am not putting you down, I'm just giving you the fact.

Miss*E - you can't even keep your own threads straight now.

 

[Levonian]

But God didn't design you to have sex with other males, anus is for external only. That is why when I gotta bowel movement, I had to be careful
not to tore up my intestine or else I get hemorroid.

Sounds like you’re quoting straight out of the owner’s manual now.

 

[The*Empress]

well we wouldn't get mad at a mechanic if he read the manual right and know how things are put together, right?
and tell him that "you think you are so perfect".

Bible is our manual and if we wanna have a nice life, we gotta follow the
instruction.

 

[The*Empress]

Miss*E - you can't even keep your own threads straight now.

See there, I am not perfect. I made many many many stupid dumb
decision in my life and I am not proud of it... I wish I could fix
it and then move on.

 

[jazzy]

I wish to meet a rapist, murderer, and child molester... and others.
I want to talk to them. I won't hate them... or bash them.

I just want them to tell me why they do that? Why do they harm another human being?

We are all humans... and sinners... and I just want to talk to rapist, why he does that... and get in deep deep conversation with him.

I'm gonna talk to them the way I talk to gay people.

I hope the murderers, rapists, child molesters rebel against me
by harming more folks and being stubborn as you all are.

I just hope I can change them... I wish. I wish I can change the world
and stop all of these crimes and AIDS and all....

U should ask my sister when she worked at the hospital with those rapists and child molestors. U know what she told me about them, they have no souls. How can they be saved by Jesus Christ our Lord when they have no feelings of what they done to them? Not even doctors can help them or change them. I doubt God can change them.

U know I wish same as u do,no more violences, crimes, greeds, diseases, hates, and many more.

But from what I read here, you have not change much since u came here on AD, your still in depression.

 

[deafdyke]

But God didn't design you to have sex with other males, anus is for external only.

And my sister had anus sex,

Your sister is a gay male? Miss P there ARE sexual posistions besides the missionary posistion! Gay males aren't the only one to have anal sex......MANY MANY hetro folks indulge in alternative sexual posistions.

 

[The*Empress]

U should ask my sister when she worked at the hospital with those rapists and child molestors. U know what she told me about them, they have no souls. How can they be saved by Jesus Christ our Lord when they have no feelings of what they done to them? Not even doctors can help them or change them. I doubt God can change them.

U know I wish same as u do,no more violences, crimes, greeds, diseases, hates, and many more.

I blame the harsh society for turning people into monsters.

 

[The*Empress]

Your sister is a gay male? Miss P there ARE sexual posistions besides the missionary posistion! Gay males aren't the only one to have anal sex......MANY MANY hetro folks indulge in alternative sexual posistions.

My sister is a female and straight.