I was near to death's door... Lucky I am alive..

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Here is what I posted on my myspace page blog..

I have decided to stop drinking- FOR GOOD! I have informed my family, and they are very happy. I also realize that I am getting more older, so my young drinking days are over. It cost me 2 out of 5 jobs I have right now. I also can't be drunk aunt as well, and I do want my neieces and nephews to have a good role model who would have good influence. I also want to keep the relationship with my dad.

I did almost died few weeks ago and I realized that I wanted to be alive, and someone did gave me wake up call last week, and I had to think so hard, had to make my decesion: Drinking, and be a failaure or stop drinking and be successful? I chose stop drinking. If someone offer me drinks, I will say I'll pass. When I return to MSCSA, I will be totally changed person and will be sober. I hope that they will regain my trust, and my other job too, hope I get it back next year or so but need to work first on getting their trust again. Today I have been 16 days sober (haven't had any drinks since Jan 28th). I am much happy and much better. I am thanking God for letting me alive instead of dying of achochal posioning. It was very close call and scary, and I don't know how people would react if I died on that day. I know it will be hard on my family, but more hardest on my father/best friend.

What is worth it: be alive, be successful at what you are doing, politely turn down people's request if you don't feel like to do it, even the peer pressures. Be there for your friends, help them.

The incident will haunt me for rest of my life.

Here is question: If you was in my shoes, what would you do?
 
racheleggert said:
I have decided to stop drinking... Staying alive is more worth than meeting at the death door... .
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Thank God for that too!!! You have so much ahead of your life. Stay safe and enjoy having your life back. :) :thumb:
 
I'm very glad that you made this decision while you are still young and healthy.

I will pray that you stay sober.

God bless you! :hug:
 
Rachel, please share with us your event that caused you to reassess your life and re-examine your attitude towards drinking. I'd appreciate a little background too, as to how you were using drinking in your life. Were you drinking to hide from something? Were you drinking because it was fun? Were your drinking habits affecting your job, school, and internship?
 
That is so wonderful u have stopped drinking, good thing u did not wait till later in life. My friend's sister died after she stopped drinking 3 months later, I guess her body was so used to it then she went straight sober her body went into shock.

congratulation!
 
I just wanted to congrats you but you will have long road to recovery your withdrawal.. my advices.. go to AA group.. twice a month.. it helps you alot..it supports your will power.. you will might relaspe if you dont get help like by going AA group..
I have been there before.. I was heavily drinker for long time till 7 years ago, I almost have died in car accident but I was really drunk and passed out while i was driving, some how i pulled over and took my keys out and passed out in the car.. my friend cop happened to check my car.. and took me home.. gave me few choices.. I decided to stop drinking and went AA group for a year.. it was wake up call.. cuz my kids need me ...
so, its been 7 years soberity... but I do drink little only for occasion.. not need to be buzz or drunk.. :)

hang in there friend.
 
Miss-Delectable,


I didn't know you had a drinking problem, This is some shocking news but I'm glad to see that you quit drinking, it does nothing but ruin your whole life. I know from experience. ;)

I am so glad you had the courage to wake up and stop. :thumb:
 
Rachel,

I'm very proud of you to decide to quit drinking in order to be heathly again....It was a smart move....Even it may not be easy to many but you did the right thing hon....


:hug: ....
 
Cheri said:
Miss-Delectable,


I didn't know you had a drinking problem, This is some shocking news but I'm glad to see that you quit drinking, it does nothing but ruin your whole life. I know from experience. ;)

I am so glad you had the courage to wake up and stop. :thumb:
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Ummm Cheri- sis, it was Rachel not Miss Delectable.... :aw:
 
Dennis said:
Rachel, please share with us your event that caused you to reassess your life and re-examine your attitude towards drinking. I'd appreciate a little background too, as to how you were using drinking in your life. Were you drinking to hide from something? Were you drinking because it was fun? Were your drinking habits affecting your job, school, and internship?
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Dennis have good point...

That time I was at a hotel for a assocation (name withheld due to protect their rep and good name) monthly meeting. The friday night friends and I was partying so hard, and I just wanted to forget all problems back home, it was too much stress, so I just decided to binge drink until the point I would pass out. I heard stories on what I was doing that night and it was terrible, and I ended up getting up and throwing up then went to bed, and I tought I would never wake up. Lucky someone came in my hotel room, and woke me up and said "its 10:00 and I am concerned about your health and safety" I spoke "oh shit", and told I would shower quickly and go meet in lobby... I showed up to meeting nearly 2 hours late. I managed to do good job. I have decide to take a leave from that assocation for awhile, and will return in fall as a sober person. I also decide to have less work for one of my job which would be good, but I do have other jobs to keep me busy.

As for drinking history, I did drank for awhile when I was 15 because of my old neighbor usually have parties every weekend, they had underage people drink too, but wasn't heavy drinker back then.. I started drinking at 20 starting at political and graduation parties. While growing up, I dealt with drunken stepfather- it was horrible experince.

I have decided to stop drink since jan 28th because I am getting more older and why do I need to drink for? I also want to be good aunt, and maintain good relationship with my dad (if I lost him due to drinking, it is like my own kid being taken away). I love him so much, can't afford to lost him.
 
Rachel,

I'm glad you had this moment of realization in your life! I wish you the best.

Someone I used to break dance with had a big drinking problem (and I mean BIG). It was not easy for me to see him throw his life down the drain. He eventually got over it, and I thought his effort was brilliant! If he overcame alcoholism, I totally think you can do the same.
 
I meant Rachel not Miss Delectable :Oops: My mistake I wasn't paying attention to the name. :giggle:
 
:hug: :hug: Rachel, I congratulate you on your bravery and courage to admit you had a problem, and have decided to do something about it. Not only for yourself, but, you thought of your family members who have come first in your life. That is so remarkable. I admire that you want to be a role model for your niece and nephew, and I commend you for that. They will always need their Aunt Rachel in their life, and you will be there to guide them down the righteous path.

Congratulations, on your journey to becoming a healthier and happier person, and hopefully someday you will mentor someone who has been in your shoes. I am very proud of you, Rachel!!!! God Bless and much love!! :ily: :hug: :hug:
 
Cheri said:
Miss-Delectable,


I didn't know you had a drinking problem, This is some shocking news but I'm glad to see that you quit drinking, it does nothing but ruin your whole life. I know from experience. ;)

I am so glad you had the courage to wake up and stop. :thumb:
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*bemused look* I had to smile at your mistake.
 
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