I"m Sooo Maddd At My Friends...

August said:
this is true

*drives around town looking for deafies to stomp on*

*laughs maniacally*
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You forget I already infected you with deaf demon blood when I bit your arm during faith healing. You are one of us now, buddy.:evil:
 
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Lord I know how that feels. Everything was cool up until 8th grade. After that I looked around and realized I had NO friends at all. They either moved away or we grew apart.

Then in 9th grade I became the target of bullies of girls and guys. It wasnt a good year for me at all. It got to the point that I developed anorexia and got to a dangerously low weight for my height. I was a deaf kid in a mainstream school. I wanted nothing more than to just dissappear into thin air. I was the little freak kid.

Then the next school year it started off so badly I was having panic attacks just walking through the halls between classes. I was afriad to do anything. That's when I got into drinking to take the edge off looking for happiness, something to NOT feel, because I was feeling void.

Then as it got closer to football season, this really bubbly girl (Lord I hated bubbly at the time because it meant to me it was fake) asked me to come to this youth event. I thought yeah right, another prank I'm not going to fall for, let me go home to my bed and just drink til I pass out, I'd be much happier for it. This girl wasn't taking no for an answer. "Come on, it will be fun!" PFFFFT yeah right, fun for them. So I went to school the next day and the youth minister shows up and was like - hey you wanna come to this youth event?
NO. Turned around and walked off.
Then a couple days later one of the popular girls just approaches me and was like 'hey, you want to come to youth tonight?'
Uhm let me think on that...... NO
Then the bubbly girl just shows up out of no where at the cafeteria, I was sitting outside by myself just glaring at the crowd, and shuffling my feet on the concrete. She just comes up and sits by me. I give her a look much like 'WTF are you doing?' I didn't say anything though. She just looks at me and was like - 'We're having youth tonight, it'll be a small crowd and I'm not taking 'no' for an answer
So I finally gave in went and this bubbly girl turned out to be one of the few friends I managed to make during my high school years, and she was (and still is) a gem indeed.

The rest is history as to what happened, but you get the idea. You can't force your way into a friendship - I was actually ready to force my way OUT OF a friendship simply because I had given up on humanity, and worst of all I had given up on myself.

There's a saying I heard the other day - friendship is organic, you cannot force it to grow. Prune away those that suck the energy from you, and watch yourself rise far above them.
 
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Dixie said:
Lord I know how that feels. Everything was cool up until 8th grade. After that I looked around and realized I had NO friends at all. They either moved away or we grew apart.

Then in 9th grade I became the target of bullies of girls and guys. It wasnt a good year for me at all. It got to the point that I developed anorexia and got to a dangerously low weight for my height. I was a deaf kid in a mainstream school. I wanted nothing more than to just dissappear into thin air. I was the little freak kid.

Then the next school year it started off so badly I was having panic attacks just walking through the halls between classes. I was afriad to do anything. That's when I got into drinking to take the edge off looking for happiness, something to NOT feel, because I was feeling void.

Then as it got closer to football season, this really bubbly girl (Lord I hated bubbly at the time because it meant to me it was fake) asked me to come to this youth event. I thought yeah right, another prank I'm not going to fall for, let me go home to my bed and just drink til I pass out, I'd be much happier for it. This girl wasn't taking no for an answer. "Come on, it will be fun!" PFFFFT yeah right, fun for them. So I went to school the next day and the youth minister shows up and was like - hey you wanna come to this youth event?
NO. Turned around and walked off.
Then a couple days later one of the popular girls just approaches me and was like 'hey, you want to come to youth tonight?'
Uhm let me think on that...... NO
Then the bubbly girl just shows up out of no where at the cafeteria, I was sitting outside by myself just glaring at the crowd, and shuffling my feet on the concrete. She just comes up and sits by me. I give her a look much like 'WTF are you doing?' I didn't say anything though. She just looks at me and was like - 'We're having youth tonight, it'll be a small crowd and I'm not taking 'no' for an answer
So I finally gave in went and this bubbly girl turned out to be one of the few friends I managed to make during my high school years, and she was (and still is) a gem indeed.

The rest is history as to what happened, but you get the idea. You can't force your way into a friendship - I was actually ready to force my way OUT OF a friendship simply because I had given up on humanity, and worst of all I had given up on myself.

There's a saying I heard the other day - friendship is organic, you cannot force it to grow. Prune away those that suck the energy from you, and watch yourself rise far above them.
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thanks for telling me that saying. It made me think for a minute. I just had to go on a long bike ride around my neighboorhood and to clear my head. its a good saying. actually right now, i'm feeling pretty better but i'm still trying to clear some things out of my head. With my crush: Jay, with friends, with band, and with everything going on. it kind of makes me emotional. I was watching a movie on disney channel called Camp Rock. And the character: Mitchie, i kind of relate to her because i'm a writer and i'm very creative. I also like to sing. But my mom and dad tells me that i'm kinda a good singer but not good enough. I recorded myself singing on a mic i have and i can't tell the difference if i'm good enough or not. since i'm deaf. I know i have a cochlear implant and a hearing aid. But most of all i want to be able to sing to express myself out. But..i dunno. I'm a writer and a musicain.
 
coolgirlspyer90 said:
I don't even know why i'm even friends with them in the first place. I wasn't friends with them on the first time we met. they wanted to be my friend. then all the sudden they're not treating me right. I feel like i wanted to yell at them and put some sense into their heads.
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you were starving for freinds, you seem to hve jumped at any oppurtunity its not your fault, i do it too, with both hearing and deaf. Some deaf /Deaf are bloody just as mean too they are picky as they are so self-conscious of who they are seen with, same goes for the hearings but for different reasons.

those jackarses you described probably were not in sync with you , like i hate to say , a slant of deaf english, values is not shared somewhat so they oust you out for the 'real life get together'
fuck it, tweens (teenagers/twenties) these days is just a longer version of a more immature generations, some call them Generation Y, by and large they are spolt brats with parents slightly older than me, wherein they had been thru a yuppie stage, climbign up the labour ranks, 'intelligent parents' but had no time for kids -the very kids are just bored they didnt have time fro you, and neither should you wtse time with them.
 
ahem - Grummer 'tweens' is not teenagers and those in their twenties. Its the younger rebellious and sharp toungued 9,10,11, and 12 year olds that get the 'tween' label. They act just as hormonal as teenagers do, but in a pint size form. Just for clarification on the label.
 
ohhhhhhh, i thought it was tweens = twenties/teens if you break it up, and its still kind of confusing to wonder where the word "tweens" come from, I mean the way the word is conjured up, it's hard to believe it to be describing smart mouthed precocious little shits at ages 9, 10,11,12 years olds
hmmmmmph, but ok

ok if thats what tweens are, then i am mistaken however i still reckon the 'mentality' of teenagers tend to last longer into their late 20's or 30s' as opposed to early-mid 20's, some of social/market shift has happened.

i think i'd go back and listen to AC/DC now...
..shuffling where's my Highway to Hell album.....
 
Grummer said:
ohhhhhhh, i thought it was tweens = twenties/teens if you break it up, and its still kind of confusing to wonder where the word "tweens" come from, I mean the way the word is conjured up, it's hard to believe it to be describing smart mouthed precocious little shits at ages 9, 10,11,12 years olds
hmmmmmph, but ok

ok if thats what tweens are, then i am mistaken however i still reckon the 'mentality' of teenagers tend to last longer into their late 20's or 30s' as opposed to early-mid 20's, some of social/market shift has happened.

i think i'd go back and listen to AC/DC now...
..shuffling where's my Highway to Hell album.....
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The word comes from them being in between childhood and adolescence.
 
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