The*Empress
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I keep making excuses not to settle down...
I am afraid that once a man comes into my life....
then he will want to marry and settle down...
I on purpose push away men...
For example...
I ignored a guy who l know like me, and he was hurt real bad.
and another example...
I met a goodlooking man at Gallaudet, and I on purpose
told the security guard "he raped me." And then told him
that I reported on you. And then he demanded, "don't talk to me,
don't touch me, and don't mess with me again!"
Then the other part of me, wish I hadn't report him...
I was regretting.
But the another part of me, glad I did that, I don't have to settle down,
I just push him futher away from me.
Right now that man is married and got children... whew I am glad
it wasn't me... but I don't know.
I just not ready to settling down...
there are so much for me to see out there in the world...
I know I am 34 years old... my clock is ticking....
but there are so much for me that I want to do....
I went to Hawaii, Alaska... I went to New Orleans to eat at nice resturant there.... I wanna learn more by taking more college classes...
I love my independence...
I am afraid that once a man comes into my life....
then he will want to marry and settle down...
I on purpose push away men...
For example...
I ignored a guy who l know like me, and he was hurt real bad.
and another example...
I met a goodlooking man at Gallaudet, and I on purpose
told the security guard "he raped me." And then told him
that I reported on you. And then he demanded, "don't talk to me,
don't touch me, and don't mess with me again!"
Then the other part of me, wish I hadn't report him...
I was regretting.
But the another part of me, glad I did that, I don't have to settle down,
I just push him futher away from me.
Right now that man is married and got children... whew I am glad
it wasn't me... but I don't know.
I just not ready to settling down...
there are so much for me to see out there in the world...
I know I am 34 years old... my clock is ticking....
but there are so much for me that I want to do....
I went to Hawaii, Alaska... I went to New Orleans to eat at nice resturant there.... I wanna learn more by taking more college classes...
I love my independence...