another rant

[DreamDeaf]

AJ ~

I know where you're coming from. I was messed up for two years abt 16 years ago, and I thought I didnt have a reason to go on...

I did fight my way through it all, and had a few good friends - although there are some things about them that I know didn't help me much. I'm just grateful I was strong enough to battle back from the pit I was in.

All I can say is ... I wish I had AllDeaf then. I might have recovered faster if I had been able to pour out what I was going through and feelings I was having then.

We are here - any time you need to rant, rave or cry - we are here. Just pur out what you're feeling into posts like you have been doing, and let us be your eyes (ears). We will help you if we are able to, and the best help we can be of right now is to listen to what you have to say.

And another thing.. there are 24 hours in a day, so take one day at a time, one hour at a time. That is what I live by.

I wish you well. Any time you need to talk, PM me.

 

[AJ]

AJ ~

I know where you're coming from. I was messed up for two years abt 16 years ago, and I thought I didnt have a reason to go on...

I did fight my way through it all, and had a few good friends - although there are some things about them that I know didn't help me much. I'm just grateful I was strong enough to battle back from the pit I was in.

All I can say is ... I wish I had AllDeaf then. I might have recovered faster if I had been able to pour out what I was going through and feelings I was having then.

We are here - any time you need to rant, rave or cry - we are here. Just pur out what you're feeling into posts like you have been doing, and let us be your eyes (ears). We will help you if we are able to, and the best help we can be of right now is to listen to what you have to say.

And another thing.. there are 24 hours in a day, so take one day at a time, one hour at a time. That is what I live by.

I wish you well. Any time you need to talk, PM me.

thank you, i appreciate that.

i think the thing that will help me is trust in myself. when i miss my mother, or am upset cuz ill never see my dad, i need to be able to trust myself, to know that ill be ok. trust myself that im strong enough to be able to grieve for a bit, then move on.

its ok to grieve. but i need to set a certain amount of time to grieve then move on.

 

[Mookie]

im going to get drunk

Good sound. Ensure that you purchae expensive imported beer at bar (no credit card allowed). That's why I could not afford anymore..darn it, I could not get drunk farther. Well, it does help me to survive longer if I could not afford any expensive alcoholic beverages, but I surely hate cheap beers like Bud or Coors. You may need to change theme bars insteading of usual bars. You may feel different.

Yeah, I fraking hate A.A. meeting. What in world are they pledging for: "Hello, my name is .... and I am an alocholician." Big deal, I do have thick blood running from alcoholic family in working class.

Just ingore Eve. She has no idea what she talking about. Eve, Put your foot in your mouth...:gives:

AJ, go to blue jazz if you can hear well enough, bookstore: stealing some stories from the book, pouring your heart out to write songs or poems in order to earn money, be :wackit: so that you do not have to worry about suicide...

Seek a deaf lady who studies in psychology. She would be happly to listen your problems. Have you considered to enroll at GAlly, CSUN, or RIT?

 

[Eve]

Obviously, Eve, you don't understand other people's feelings but your own.

Actually, RebelGirl, I do, but from what I have seen here, I felt that professional intervention was in order, not just a rant. And I see nothing “evil-speaking” about that.

The last thing you said "I will not accept the responsibility of your own self-destruction" has NOTHING to do with your own action.. that was just pure evil thing to say to someone that has a problem..

You obviously have never had a loved-one commit suicide (and I hope you never do), so until then, you have no idea how applicable my statement was.

Maybe one day, when you go crying or upset needing to talk to someone.. someone says that stuff to you the way you said to AJ.. wouldn't make you feel good about it.. won't it?

I wasn’t trying to make AJ feel better, I was trying to get him to realize that he needs more help than he is going to be able to find in an online forum. He doesn’t need a pity party, he needs intervention. If I get to the point where I am contemplating suicide (past or present) and have not been able to resolve my issues effectively, I can guarantee you I will seek professional help before I come spilling my guts in AD.

i have a pretty good feeling im not voting for Eve for Mod thats for damn sure.

Wake up and smell the coffee, there will be no voting. And, what exactly does that have to do with this thread anyway?

id rather cut my penis off with a dull knife before i vote for her.

More self-destructive speak?

Just ingore Eve. She has no idea what she talking about. Eve, Put your foot in your mouth...

Coming from you, I will take this as a compliment.

 

[AJ]

Good sound. Ensure that you purchae expensive imported beer at bar (no credit card allowed). That's why I could not afford anymore..darn it, I could not get drunk farther. Well, it does help me to survive longer if I could not afford any expensive alcoholic beverages, but I surely hate cheap beers like Bud or Coors. You may need to change theme bars insteading of usual bars. You may feel different.

Yeah, I fraking hate A.A. meeting. What in world are they pledging for: "Hello, my name is .... and I am an alocholician." Big deal, I do have thick blood running from alcoholic family in working class.

Just ingore Eve. She has no idea what she talking about. Eve, Put your foot in your mouth...:gives:

AJ, go to blue jazz if you can hear well enough, bookstore: stealing some stories from the book, pouring your heart out to write songs or poems in order to earn money, be :wackit: so that you do not have to worry about suicide...

Seek a deaf lady who studies in psychology. She would be happly to listen your problems. Have you considered to enroll at GAlly, CSUN, or RIT?

...uh, thanks?

 

[Oceanbreeze]

Obviously, Eve, you don't understand other people's feelings but your own. AJ was just speaking for himself how upset he was, and you're turning this into your own evil speaking by saying this post. The last thing you said "I will not accept the responsibility of your own self-destruction" has NOTHING to do with your own action.. that was just pure evil thing to say to someone that has a problem.. that definitely wouldn't make a good judgement coming from you.. Maybe one day, when you go crying or upset needing to talk to someone.. someone says that stuff to you the way you said to AJ.. wouldn't make you feel good about it.. won't it?

Take a look at this thread in it's entirity. People have written several posts that would be considered "supportive", and has it helped? It doesn't appear that it has. What I really see going on is a lot of people coddling him and giving him attention. A kick in the pants sometimes works wonders.

 

[GalaxyAngel]

AJ,

You're not only ones, whoever has simlair alike you... Keep fight and until your dream goal to reach the top.. Lead you into better life and happier..

Of course I do certinally your feeling really quite upside down.. as same me before long time ago when I was teenager and kept fusterating lot of things... I kept patience and become the success... Will turns it out better life..

Keep going look out the beach and expression your feelings and talk to JESUS... Don't forget He'll be there for you anything... scarfice your feelings to GOD.. One day you will feel better...

Rest of Ad'ers who love and help you... You're really lucky have them being here right one!

Take care-

 

[Liebling:-)))]

First of all... Great Vent

No, you do not need to apologize for what you rant here. It´s good for you get out of your chest because you deserve it. We´re here for you ...

I can understand how you feel. It´s very important to learn to postive your life and try to think something what you really want to have in your life... then do that.

Deafclimber´s post
aj, i understand how u feel. i felt empty when i was into divorce. i had struggled for a long time to recover myself. that was why i have traveled to rock climbing areas with my friends. rock has been my awesome therapist. i have communicating with God and the nature. i have been in beautiful peace in mountains. the nature always listens to ya and it never leaves ya, you know.

I see that Deafclimber made an excellent point... I would advise you to take his advice to do SOMETHING with your hobby which it´s good therapy for you... Have you any hobby? If yes, then do that... If not, then go to evening class to find out which hobbies you really like to have...

AJ´s post
ive been to 2 therapists and ill never again go back.
one kept asking me how i felt about things
the other one asked me dumb questions like have i ever stolen anything from my family members...what does that have to do with anything? im not a theif.
they make me feel stupid
i just want my mom

Well, I was emotional abuse in the past... I have been went to therapy and also self-help group, too... It work on me because I want the help... Yes, it´s normal for therapists to know everything about your life first before they are able to work on you. Yes, I answered EVERYTHING what therapists questioned me BECAUSE I want the help and want to KNOW about ME..... I become more self-confidence and learn alot of tips from therapists... I am grateful what I am with their help... If you really want to get the help then let therapist know everything about your life............. Therapist cant do anything to help you if you refuse to answer their question.
Drinking would not solve your problems.... but be postive about your life if you really want the help...
I make a walk alot when I got the anger from anyone...... to cool me down... it helps when you goes for a walk anywhere you want... beach, forest, country, park......

 

[Roadrunner]

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