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darkangel8603

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alrite i am boiling angry right now.. Actually i had been pissed about this since a few weeks now but it just make me more and more upset everyday so i thought i ought to get it all out. those who want to listen go ahead and listen.. those morons that hates my ass and want to pick on me in this thread, get a life and get out of my thread.. thanks..

Ok, I guess i have to tell a bit of my history so you guys can understand...

Alrite as i have mentioned it before i have been diagoned with bipolar disorder a couple years ago. (for those who don't know waht bipolar is, it is a mental illness with BAD mood swings to really happy and careless to really depressed and sucidial, if you wanna know more google is your best friend) anyway...
Well last year I went to school in september like any other students, but only last year was not a good year for me. Last summer i was admitted in the hopsital for overdosing on pills twice. When i went to school, i was a residence student. And well my moods were terrible last yr. I had the worse year. I was often sucidial and stuff at school. So after od on pill again in late november, i was asked to leave the school and residence til my health get better. SO i left milton (my school) in November, and then by Feb in the second semeter, i thought i was doing better so i returned to school, yet they wont let me be residence student cuz of what happened. So I was forced to become day student, and i live about an hour away from school. It didnt take me long to be asked to leave again. In early March I was sucidual and stuff, i went to talk to someone, and they sent me to the hostipital nearby cuz they couldnt sent me home as my parent was not home and they didnt want me to go home alone etc.. Anyway my parent came down to the hospital and picked me up as i didnt stay overnight. So i was requested to leave again. Which i did. A week after that incident, i went to see doctor, and he suggest me raise my meds. SO i did, I raised my meds and then after that I felt great, I hadn't had any epsoide since march. I was doing great and no problems. SO now i am returning back to school in 2 weeks.

The thing is, I dont want to be day student cuz I had been residence student all my life, and I don;t like riding the bus for 2 hours everyday back and forth to school and home. So I requested to be a residence student.. I requested last May before school was finish for the year. I had tried sooo many time to contact the school, to contact my principal and the residence supervisor, but i swear they are avoiding me. When I do reach one of them, they would make up excuses and say "ohh I don't make the decisions he/she does" it got me pissed. But i stay cool. Another one of their excuses is "the residence is full" that is complete of bullshit because last feb when i asked to be in residence they said residence is full, when i went down to visit myf riends in residence, I noticed there was LOTS of rooms for more kids. Now they are saying residence is full again, I don't believe that. Finally in June when school was almost over Me and my parent keep buggin them but they won't answer me. When school was finish for the year, i stopped becausse i knew it was worthless to try to contact someone in July cuz it is vacation.. August comes, my parents and I are starting again. We start buggin them and asking them. And finally they give us the answer. well the principal gave us the answer. "I did not recieve any paperwork saying you are residence student, so please make arrangement for busing everyday" she said.. I was soo PISSED OFF. My parent was not happy, cuz they obsess about past, I want to start fresh and I am feeling better, I had not have espoide since March. But they wont give me a chance. My parents told the bus that i was residence student and my mom told my principal and said well she is bused every monday and fridays, so you better find a room for her. But again principal said no she is day student you better arrange busing for her!! My parent not happy, and I am not either. My mom called school board for special needs in my home area, they said they cant do anything about it. So tomorrow i am going to call the supertient of the school. If she wont do anything I will be double pissed. After that I am going to contact anselmo, he is the student avoicate for the provincial school students in ontairo and hope he will help me.

I just want a fresh start, why they have to be idiot. ARRGG!! I have some good points for reasons why i want to be residence student not day...

1. Transportation is too much for me, I dont like traveling back and forth everyday.
2. Homework habits and attendance habits, I had been attending school as residence student all my life, and my homework and attendance habit had formed with the residence life.
3. Essential activities.. This is my final year of high school, I want to be involved with things for my last year. and i need to vouluteer for my hours to graduate.
4. Social life, I dun have a social life in my home area. All my friends live out of my city, and i never see them.
5. Lateness, when i was a day student for temporary time, i was always late for first period of class everyday!. 15 mins late!! ALWAYS!!

Those adminintation of my school are always trying to piss me off, and they are doing very well on it..

I JUST WANT MY FUCKING LAST YEAR TO BE A GOOD MEMORIES FOR MYSELF!! and I WANT TO BE GOOD STUDENT FOR MY FUCKING LAST YEAR!!!! I HATE THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE CHALLENGING ME AND MY PARENTS!!!!


sighs i guess i am done ranting and raving..
 
Ernest C. Drury School for the Deaf is in a HUGE crisis as we speak. It has been a problem for years and it's getting worse. Now they need 17 teachers, they even resort to hiring people who aren't certified teachers at all to substitute a lot. But they can't help that because they cannot find anybody to teach classes.

Personally, I think you'll be doing yourself a favour by going to a different school to give you a better chance of pursuing a post-secondary education. Just my suggestion.

Anyway, the way the administration works is quite... well... confusing and difficult to deal with. But that's because the school is massively underfunded and it shows. I was a student there for years till I graduated.

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Just my two cents. Sorry that you had to deal with these problems.
 
Ouch. I am sorry you have to go thru this shit. Should not be this way, should be your happiest moment to be last year of high school. sometime we need to fight to get what we want, so don't give up yet. Keep at them till they let u in.


I do know what bipolor disorder is, thank you for the link. Wish you a many luck with your senior year.
 
Banjo said:
Ernest C. Drury School for the Deaf is in a HUGE crisis as we speak. It has been a problem for years and it's getting worse. Now they need 17 teachers, they even resort to hiring people who aren't certified teachers at all to substitute a lot. But they can't help that because they cannot find anybody to teach classes.

Personally, I think you'll be doing yourself a favour by going to a different school to give you a better chance of pursuing a post-secondary education. Just my suggestion.

Anyway, the way the administration works is quite... well... confusing and difficult to deal with. But that's because the school is massively underfunded and it shows. I was a student there for years till I graduated.

:-/

Just my two cents. Sorry that you had to deal with these problems.
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yes that would be a good suggestion, but there isnt another deaf school for miles. There is one in Belleville which is like 5 hours away form my home.. Robarts school is where i grew up at, in London, but i was forced to transfer to ECD school cuz of small number of high school students there. When I left robarts there were only 5 kids left in high school. I had no choice to transfer for my education than stay at robarts and learn nothing.. So that why i was forced to transfer to ECD. If i could I would've stay at London school instead.
 
darkangel8603 said:
yes that would be a good suggestion, but there isnt another deaf school for miles. There is one in Belleville which is like 5 hours away form my home.. Robarts school is where i grew up at, in London, but i was forced to transfer to ECD school cuz of small number of high school students there. When I left robarts there were only 5 kids left in high school. I had no choice to transfer for my education than stay at robarts and learn nothing.. So that why i was forced to transfer to ECD. If i could I would've stay at London school instead.
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Actually, I was suggesting that you enter a public school and that you be provided with sign language interpreters. None of the schools for the deaf in the province of Ontario is quite stable at the moment. All of them are massively underfunded and falling apart. Getting a good education will pave a better road to the future with less potholes in it.

I can understand why people would want to be with their good friends, but it's also important to understand that you may lose touch with some of them after you graduate and you may end up regretting that you didn't pursue for a better education.

I don't want to make you feel angry toward me, but I just think it's important that you understand the risks of staying at a very unstable school and what kind of damages it can do to your future.
 
On the other hand Banjo, as someone who is bipolar herself I can totally see what darkangel is saying.....High school was MISERABLE for me in the mainstream. It's miserable for a LOT of kids with disabilties.... darkangel is saying that she feels that she'd be a lot happier and acheive a lot more if she could live in the dorms. I remember one of the best parts of living in the dorms was that I had a social life, that there was always someone to talk to...I was happy, so I did well in my classes. Darkangel....it's too bad that there isn't a program for kids with emotional disorders at your school....those are very popular at deaf schools here in the US.
Is there a school psychologist? Maybe you could say that you'd go and see her every so often.
 
deafdyke said:
On the other hand Banjo, as someone who is bipolar herself I can totally see what darkangel is saying.....High school was MISERABLE for me in the mainstream. It's miserable for a LOT of kids with disabilties.... darkangel is saying that she feels that she'd be a lot happier and acheive a lot more if she could live in the dorms. I remember one of the best parts of living in the dorms was that I had a social life, that there was always someone to talk to...I was happy, so I did well in my classes. Darkangel....it's too bad that there isn't a program for kids with emotional disorders at your school....those are very popular at deaf schools here in the US.
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There's a lot of students with serious emotional issues at this school. They are often sent to the PHD room to receive counselling. Believe me, I know this school inside and outside and how they work the system around. Especially when I happen to know quite a lot of people.

Is there a school psychologist? Maybe you could say that you'd go and see her every so often.
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Well, not a school psychologist. But they do have some senior counsellors to help with students' problems. In fact, I was a peer helper and I did counsel with some students back then at that school. It's known as the Peer Helper Drury program. It was a good experience for me and I enjoyed it a lot. One of the best classes to take on at that school.
 
i couldn't go into hearing school, there isnt enough interpreter to go through the day with me. there is hardly any in my hometown.

a former classmate of mine in elementary school, went to high school in the same town as i live in, she is struggling with interpreter issue cuz she cant get interpreter..

oh and bango, i aint angry at you.. dun worry.. :D
 
I had to make a similar decision for my own daughter and I decided on a mainstream school with a deaf program. Last year was my daughters 1st year mainstreamed {8th} grade and the first four months were really hard.

She has adjusted but was worried about starting high school this year{ The high school also has a deaf program} She came home the first day of school {last monday} and said she loved it.

A lot of parents thou don't live in good districts and if the school has any kind of a deaf program they usually suck. We are very fortunate to live in a good district.
 
deafdyke said:
On the other hand Banjo, as someone who is bipolar herself I can totally see what darkangel is saying.....High school was MISERABLE for me in the mainstream. It's miserable for a LOT of kids with disabilties.... darkangel is saying that she feels that she'd be a lot happier and acheive a lot more if she could live in the dorms. I remember one of the best parts of living in the dorms was that I had a social life, that there was always someone to talk to...I was happy, so I did well in my classes. Darkangel....it's too bad that there isn't a program for kids with emotional disorders at your school....those are very popular at deaf schools here in the US.
Is there a school psychologist? Maybe you could say that you'd go and see her every so often.
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Yea being in high school was miserable. I had few hearing friends to go thru and some deaf friends too. I was in deaf school myself when was young but my family had to move to another state and then I went to hearing school with mainstream classes. In my senior year I was struggling with low grades. My teacher told me I might not going to make it through high school. She said I might go another year of high school. NO WAY I am not going another year of school! So I'm gonna prove my teacher wrong. I only had few months of school to go to. Until finally in June I made it through. I proved my teacher wrong about failing classes. Finally an high school graduate!
 
There's a lot of students with serious emotional issues at this school.
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Yeah, but what I meant was a specific program in the school for those kids. In the US, a lot of times at Deaf schools, they have the regular Deaf school and then a special program for emoitally distrubed kids.
 
deafdyke said:
Yeah, but what I meant was a specific program in the school for those kids. In the US, a lot of times at Deaf schools, they have the regular Deaf school and then a special program for emoitally distrubed kids.
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Well, they don't have such a program. Like I said, it's due to the massive underfunding from the government. The school is already deep in costs over the Deaf Plus program which is expanding at a rapid rate. (Deaf Plus is for these with severe handicaps both physically and mentally.).

Even if they happen to make such a program, it wouldn't make a difference because they'll have trouble trying to find the qualified candidates to hire for it because everybody at this school is paid less than the average teacher working in public sector.

Yup, that's right. It is that bad.
 
That explains why you have extra multi-personality disorder becasue of your avatar pix...

Just kidding. :dance:

I want you to challenge them again. If they refuse again, you may need to contact client assistance program. CAP may assist you to contact a free legal service for you. The best bet is either law internist from law school or an attorney from the fancy law firm on pro bono would assist you. You need to cotactKentucky Client Assistance Program and inform them that you wish to admit the dorm with Milton School for the Deaf under ADA and Kentucky state laws. They can not discrimiate againist you on the base of your pyschology disorder.
 
mld4ds said:
That explains why you have extra multi-personality disorder becasue of your avatar pix...

Just kidding. :dance:

I want you to challenge them again. If they refuse again, you may need to contact client assistance program. CAP may assist you to contact a free legal service for you. The best bet is either law internist from law school or an attorney from the fancy law firm on pro bono would assist you. You need to cotactKentucky Client Assistance Program and inform them that you wish to admit the dorm with Milton School for the Deaf under ADA and Kentucky state laws. They can not discrimiate againist you on the base of your pyschology disorder.
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hmm sound like good plan, but unfortunally i am a canadian..
 
darkangel8603 said:
hmm sound like good plan, but unfortunally i am a canadian..
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darkangel8603 said:
hmm sound like good plan, but unfortunally i am a canadian..
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Oh, I thought you were in Kentucky....

Hmm, you may try to contact Canada Hearing Soceity and find out if they may give you some assistance. Ensure that you mention about the program similar Client Assistance Program in U.S. I am sure that they know what you talking about. You better contact CHS immeidately since you do not have much time because of school starting soon..

Good Luck
 
Yes, it can be tough. However, we usually have to prove ourselves if we made a mistake before. Since you made a mistake and they forced you to leave because of that mistake. They may not feel ready to let you back. You said it yourself... you had a lot of rebounds, regardless of the medication you had and the help you received. You said you were better, but you weren't. You said it again, but still weren't. Now, you say you're better... but they still look back at your history. So, like I said... prove yourself. It's something you'll have to work on. I'm sure that if you continue to be a day student and show that you have no suicidal tendencies, OD problems, or anything... then they may reconsider.

Try talking with some people at the school and ask them what you can do. Sometimes, negotiations work best. Ask them what you need to do to earn that resident status. Ask them everything you can think of.

We have had that problem many times here at NTID/RIT. There are some students who have drug and alcohol problems. One student got caught drinking in his room. They gave him diciplinary probation. Within 2 weeks, that same student got caught drinking in his room again. He was suspended. As soon as he returned from his suspension, he got caught drinking again... so he was suspended again. Now, they refuse to let him live in the dorms. Another student had a mental breakdown. He was stalking this other person and was warned not to. He went ahead and harassed this person again and was put on probation. He still did it again and again. Now, he's not allowed on campus for anything except classes and appointments (must contact Campus Safety in advance). This applies until the other person is finished with school.
 
On the other hand Vampy, there's a HUGE diffy between someone drinking and stalking and bipolar.....Mental illnesses are unpredicable....whereas stalking and drinking are both behavoirs that can be restrained!
 
drinking and bipolar are way different situation. I made a mistake, yes, but I cant help it. It wasnt my fault. And no I am not the one who is blaming others for problems I often blame myself for those problems but after months from my mom lecturing me "its not your fault" i start torealize having bipolar is not my fault. It Happened. I was born with the disorder, it jus didnt show up til i was 13.
 
darkangle..maybe you and your mom and doc can sit down with school admins and work out a guide line u know like i am resopsable for taking my meds and seeing my doc etc etc and what u would do if u feel to out of control so that school doesn't feel like the have to be afraid u going to hurt yourself at any minute....maybe ur mom and doc can get the school to agree on a trial or something...i dunno just a thought...
 
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