i recently found my first crush on myspace.
we grew up in the same neighborhood and went to the same school for 6 years. in first grade, i wrote her a note: "you're beautiful" (yes i actually looked it up and spelled it right ). i went to her 7th birthday party, where she playfully kicked me in the balls with her brand new cowgirl boots. good times.
so i looked her up
SHE'S FUCKING SMOKING HOT OMG.
but her boyfriend is a total douche. and she claims to be an alcoholic. and her brother proudly claims to be a convicted felon.
a few months ago my family saw her mom at a restaurant. she's a waitress or something. anyway, when she talked to us, her face and voice were almost without expression. it was like she was dead inside. i wish i could remember more about her family from when i was a child; i have a feeling there was some FUCKED UP shit going on there. i think her mom and dad were divorced, and if she really is an alcoholic at such a young age, she must have inherited it from one or both of her parents and/or been violently or sexually abused.
anyway, she, too, is now working as a waitress just like her mom. maybe she's already begun the downward spiral of her life. i kind of hope i never run into her because i'm afraid that she might open her mouth and say some STUPID shit and ruin my image of her.
but still
OH MY GOD SHE'S LIKE A FUCKING SUPERMODEL
...ONLY HOTTER.
who feels my pain?
we grew up in the same neighborhood and went to the same school for 6 years. in first grade, i wrote her a note: "you're beautiful" (yes i actually looked it up and spelled it right ). i went to her 7th birthday party, where she playfully kicked me in the balls with her brand new cowgirl boots. good times.
so i looked her up
SHE'S FUCKING SMOKING HOT OMG.
but her boyfriend is a total douche. and she claims to be an alcoholic. and her brother proudly claims to be a convicted felon.
a few months ago my family saw her mom at a restaurant. she's a waitress or something. anyway, when she talked to us, her face and voice were almost without expression. it was like she was dead inside. i wish i could remember more about her family from when i was a child; i have a feeling there was some FUCKED UP shit going on there. i think her mom and dad were divorced, and if she really is an alcoholic at such a young age, she must have inherited it from one or both of her parents and/or been violently or sexually abused.
anyway, she, too, is now working as a waitress just like her mom. maybe she's already begun the downward spiral of her life. i kind of hope i never run into her because i'm afraid that she might open her mouth and say some STUPID shit and ruin my image of her.
but still
OH MY GOD SHE'S LIKE A FUCKING SUPERMODEL
...ONLY HOTTER.
who feels my pain?