Hello, I just needed to talk to someone that would understand. Sometimes I get frustrated because everyone I know has hearing babies or the people that i talk to with deaf children dont have the same views i do. Sometimes I feel so alone.My daughter was implanted 4 months ago. I still sign with her though. Shes so cute when she signs. I just feel like I have no support with the ASL. I just wish I could meet more parents that sign with their babies.The people I meet just stick with oral communication.I feel like a loner because we(my husand and I) decided to have her implanted, but still like to sign. Im not that great so far! I get "tongue twisted" with my hands.Oh, well Im still learning.I hope to just get better and better.I just start to think of my daughter's future.Im scared that she will grow up confused.I dont want her to be confused.I will accept any route she decides.Honestly, when i envision her in the future i hope she chooses to date a deaf man, have deaf friends, and embrace who she is.I cant wait to finish nursing school so that we can move.the city we live in does not offer much for deaf children or families.The city I would like to live has a larger deaf population. I have noticed that since my daughter was implanted, my family and friends need lots of educating.The first thing they ask is," So she can hear now, right? Or how about before she was implanted people would say," Im surprised she cries!" HELLO! of course she can cry! I was watching this clip on youtube, and this mother was crying after her baby was implanted and telling the doc. thankyou for this wonderful gift,I dont know why it made me mad.She acted like the hearing loss was soo horrible and she was so grateful that he was cured now.When I found out I didnt feel like it was this horrible curse.I even had an audiologist tell me he was surprised at how well I was taking the news.My friends attribute it to the fact Im becoming a nurse and I accept people for who they are.I just knew I fell in love with my baby and she was healthy so I was happy. I know some people may wonder why we chose to get her a CI if we were so accepting of her.Just like I mentioned in my previous post(though it has been awhile) I just want her to have choices.Some may agree and some may not.Im not perfect and I know I'll make mistakes.It would just be nice to have a friend that understands where We(my family and I) are coming from.Thanx for listening! I appreciate any feedback or advice, I dont take things too personal!