crookz5
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alrighty, I'm new to this forum, I just joined today. I need some men's point of view and also women would be great.
I'm deaf, married to a hearing man- we have 2 beautiful little girls (5 and 1 year old).... Met a man of my dreams online last July, that is hearing also... He and I have so much in common and want the same things in life. When I first met him in person, I felt something 'click' and knew that I wanted to be with that man... I find out just a couple weeks ago, he wanted to be with me, but he is also married (now proceeding to get a divorce since his wife left him)... My husband and I have NOTHING in common, all he wants to do is go out and have fun, party, drink.. Me- I would rather sit at home on the couch with my man.
This other man- he is the same as I am... He moved from IA to OK.. He asked me to come to OK for a couple weeks, so I do with my husband's permission. On the way down, I picked him up at his friend's house as that his truck broke down, so he and I drove back to OK together... We stopped overnight at a hotel in Kansas since I was in the truck for more than 10 hours and I was sick of riding in my truck... So he pays for the hotel room- but not before he asked me if i wanted my own room, I said it didn't matter.. He gets one room with 2 beds... Damn heater was broken, I was so cold even with all the blankets.. So I wake him up asking if I can get into bed with him (i wanted to do that anyway, LOL) He says that was fine. So I climb in bed with him... I cuddled up right next to him- all of a sudden, he puts his arms around me and holds me so close and tight, I fell asleep immediately.. Then about a few hours later, I feel him kissing my neck and rubbing my back- then I turn over to kiss him..... One thing led to another- sex.... We slept together naked and woke up together naked and made love again. Then we got back on the road to OK- got to his apt within 3 hours, then he goes right to work.. We had made love quite a few times when I was staying with him... Every single night in bed, he held me so close to him tightly like he never wanted to let me go..
The day I had to leave for MN (to come home to my daughters and hubby), he was crying as I was- when we hugged- he held me so tight for so long, then kissed me goodbye, then went to work..... Although in that time I was with this man- I realized that I was falling in love with him and wanted to be with him more than anything. I told him that too and he replies back "That's good and bad for me" with a chuckle. I feel so free and at ease when I'm with him, I feel comfortable with him, I feel more happier with him.... everything that he and I did together (sex kiss, etc), felt right to me. Nothing felt wrong to me- I don't even regret anything that I did with him. AFAIK, he doesn't regret anything either and loves to be with me...
Then we talked on the phone a few times and had good converstations, finally the following week, I called him- he became an real ass to me telling me to stop calling before i get him into trouble with the boss "Again" so I said "fuck you; be an asshole to me, you call me then" then I hung up on him... I haven't heard from him since so I texted him last night to see if he received my letter- he texts back "I haven't been able to get my mail as that I've been so busy working with guests at the ranch and I am still with some right now so I'll ttyl"
The thing is when I talked to him before he was an ass to me that day- I was asking if he wanted to be with me as that my hubby and I are more likely going to get divorced soon due to different look on life, and he answered "It's not a factor of what I want" (meaning him) so I'm really confused by this statement.. He has twin boys that are 6 years old, so I'm thinking it has to do with them.. He says he was writing me a letter and it would explain it, although I have not yet received that letter from him and I've sent him 2 so far.. He has not had a chance to let me know that he received them... I know he is really busy working, as that he works at a ranch in Oklahoma.
I'm happily married, but I keep feeling the "pull" towards this man. I don't even want to be with my husband, I want to be with that man. He is just about all I think about, who I want to be with, who I feel most comfortable and at ease with...
so I guess my questions are: do you think he and I would end up together once he and I figure out what we want from each other and we are both divorced?
What did he mean by "IT's not a factor of what he wants"
Do you think he may be yanking my chain around?
PM me if you'd like.. Thanks in advance
Mary
I'm deaf, married to a hearing man- we have 2 beautiful little girls (5 and 1 year old).... Met a man of my dreams online last July, that is hearing also... He and I have so much in common and want the same things in life. When I first met him in person, I felt something 'click' and knew that I wanted to be with that man... I find out just a couple weeks ago, he wanted to be with me, but he is also married (now proceeding to get a divorce since his wife left him)... My husband and I have NOTHING in common, all he wants to do is go out and have fun, party, drink.. Me- I would rather sit at home on the couch with my man.
This other man- he is the same as I am... He moved from IA to OK.. He asked me to come to OK for a couple weeks, so I do with my husband's permission. On the way down, I picked him up at his friend's house as that his truck broke down, so he and I drove back to OK together... We stopped overnight at a hotel in Kansas since I was in the truck for more than 10 hours and I was sick of riding in my truck... So he pays for the hotel room- but not before he asked me if i wanted my own room, I said it didn't matter.. He gets one room with 2 beds... Damn heater was broken, I was so cold even with all the blankets.. So I wake him up asking if I can get into bed with him (i wanted to do that anyway, LOL) He says that was fine. So I climb in bed with him... I cuddled up right next to him- all of a sudden, he puts his arms around me and holds me so close and tight, I fell asleep immediately.. Then about a few hours later, I feel him kissing my neck and rubbing my back- then I turn over to kiss him..... One thing led to another- sex.... We slept together naked and woke up together naked and made love again. Then we got back on the road to OK- got to his apt within 3 hours, then he goes right to work.. We had made love quite a few times when I was staying with him... Every single night in bed, he held me so close to him tightly like he never wanted to let me go..
The day I had to leave for MN (to come home to my daughters and hubby), he was crying as I was- when we hugged- he held me so tight for so long, then kissed me goodbye, then went to work..... Although in that time I was with this man- I realized that I was falling in love with him and wanted to be with him more than anything. I told him that too and he replies back "That's good and bad for me" with a chuckle. I feel so free and at ease when I'm with him, I feel comfortable with him, I feel more happier with him.... everything that he and I did together (sex kiss, etc), felt right to me. Nothing felt wrong to me- I don't even regret anything that I did with him. AFAIK, he doesn't regret anything either and loves to be with me...
Then we talked on the phone a few times and had good converstations, finally the following week, I called him- he became an real ass to me telling me to stop calling before i get him into trouble with the boss "Again" so I said "fuck you; be an asshole to me, you call me then" then I hung up on him... I haven't heard from him since so I texted him last night to see if he received my letter- he texts back "I haven't been able to get my mail as that I've been so busy working with guests at the ranch and I am still with some right now so I'll ttyl"
The thing is when I talked to him before he was an ass to me that day- I was asking if he wanted to be with me as that my hubby and I are more likely going to get divorced soon due to different look on life, and he answered "It's not a factor of what I want" (meaning him) so I'm really confused by this statement.. He has twin boys that are 6 years old, so I'm thinking it has to do with them.. He says he was writing me a letter and it would explain it, although I have not yet received that letter from him and I've sent him 2 so far.. He has not had a chance to let me know that he received them... I know he is really busy working, as that he works at a ranch in Oklahoma.
I'm happily married, but I keep feeling the "pull" towards this man. I don't even want to be with my husband, I want to be with that man. He is just about all I think about, who I want to be with, who I feel most comfortable and at ease with...
so I guess my questions are: do you think he and I would end up together once he and I figure out what we want from each other and we are both divorced?
What did he mean by "IT's not a factor of what he wants"
Do you think he may be yanking my chain around?
PM me if you'd like.. Thanks in advance
Mary
