coolgirlspyer90
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Hey guys,
Sorry I haven't been in AD for so long. I was so busy with Band for the past few weeks. We got into our BOA (bands of america) Grand nationals. And my band is the 9th place finalist in the nation. So we're really excited about that. And Now I'm having a break off from band since the Fall line (marching band) is over for the season until next year. And I'm in the winter drumline. I tried out 2 weeks ago. I got in as the 2nd leading Miramba. If my leader in my section isnt here for a rehersal, I'd would have to lead the group until she's back for the next rehersal. Which is a huge deal because it's like I'm a co-leader's section.
I've been doing good. I had a good thanksgiving with my family on thursday. And the day before that My mom took me and my sister to meet up with my mom's friend and my mom's friend's daughter to see Twilight the movie. It was soooo goodd. I never wanted it to end. I wasn't ready for it to end. It was excatly like the book that I read. I read all 4 books. And they're totally good. I'm all for edward. He's totally cute. And I'm all for Bella too.
As for my love life; I'm friends with jay, and with mitch. The winter dance is coming up pretty soon and this time is girl's choice. But I don't know if i'm going to go because I don't want to bother my mom to get me a new winter dress for the dance. Because of what's going on with the money because of the government I don't want to ask for anything more. And Christmas is coming up anyways. I have plenty of guy friends. Guy friends from outside of band and from band. But I'm still looking for the right guy to be with as my boyfriend. I was thinking about my best friend named Ivan. He's deaf of course. He's hard of hearing. Wears hearing aids. And he lives in the same state as me but not in the same town. He's kind of far from me but we used to go to the same school together. His name is pronouce "e-van" not "I-van" like the hurricane name. But I used to date ivan before. But not as going out dating. But I broke up with him because he was a few years older than me. I was at least 13 when he was 16. But I met him when i was in the 4th grade and he was in the 7th grade. I asked ivan why he chosed me to be his girlfriend by texting him one time when i was at Grand Nationals and I was on a lunch break until it was time to peform again. He texted me saying: "Because I liked you more than anything." And I thought that was really sweet of him. I almost teared up. I had my doubts about dating him again. But at the time I kinda didn't want to because I wanted to date guys that are my age that makes me more comfortable like Mitch or Jay. Dating someone older than me doesn't make me feel right. And it's kind of awkward. I mean I don't mind having a friend whose like older than me. It's just awkward. Sometimes I feel like I have a big hole in my love life where I can't find anybody that would want to date me. Like how i was the only deaf person in my grade in my school, and the rest of them thats in front of me is hearing?? I felt like it was weird for guys to date me because I'm deaf and that I have a CI and a HA and that they wouldn't want to date me. I was talking to a girl in the band about that and she just nodded and said "Yeah thats true." That kinda hurt. But then I told my friend Ashley at the dance and she said: "You know what?, If any guy saw you in that he's not the guy for you. You should just put your hand up and walk away. And that any guy would think you're special the way you are now." That made me feel better. But the truth is that I'm still feeling like no guys would date me because of my CI and HA. I still feel like that to them. Even though i have good friends now than before, I still feel like that. And I don't know how to fix that part. I always leave my hair down to hide my CI and HA so nobody would think as me as weird. I don't wear my FM system in front of my crush in my one class that I have with him. And I don't sign as much to my interpreter in front of my crush. Don't get me wrong, I'm proud of being deaf. It's just that the fact I'm kind of uncomfortable with showing guys that they would see me as the weird girl with CI and HA...:Oops:
Sorry I haven't been in AD for so long. I was so busy with Band for the past few weeks. We got into our BOA (bands of america) Grand nationals. And my band is the 9th place finalist in the nation. So we're really excited about that. And Now I'm having a break off from band since the Fall line (marching band) is over for the season until next year. And I'm in the winter drumline. I tried out 2 weeks ago. I got in as the 2nd leading Miramba. If my leader in my section isnt here for a rehersal, I'd would have to lead the group until she's back for the next rehersal. Which is a huge deal because it's like I'm a co-leader's section.
I've been doing good. I had a good thanksgiving with my family on thursday. And the day before that My mom took me and my sister to meet up with my mom's friend and my mom's friend's daughter to see Twilight the movie. It was soooo goodd. I never wanted it to end. I wasn't ready for it to end. It was excatly like the book that I read. I read all 4 books. And they're totally good. I'm all for edward. He's totally cute. And I'm all for Bella too.
As for my love life; I'm friends with jay, and with mitch. The winter dance is coming up pretty soon and this time is girl's choice. But I don't know if i'm going to go because I don't want to bother my mom to get me a new winter dress for the dance. Because of what's going on with the money because of the government I don't want to ask for anything more. And Christmas is coming up anyways. I have plenty of guy friends. Guy friends from outside of band and from band. But I'm still looking for the right guy to be with as my boyfriend. I was thinking about my best friend named Ivan. He's deaf of course. He's hard of hearing. Wears hearing aids. And he lives in the same state as me but not in the same town. He's kind of far from me but we used to go to the same school together. His name is pronouce "e-van" not "I-van" like the hurricane name. But I used to date ivan before. But not as going out dating. But I broke up with him because he was a few years older than me. I was at least 13 when he was 16. But I met him when i was in the 4th grade and he was in the 7th grade. I asked ivan why he chosed me to be his girlfriend by texting him one time when i was at Grand Nationals and I was on a lunch break until it was time to peform again. He texted me saying: "Because I liked you more than anything." And I thought that was really sweet of him. I almost teared up. I had my doubts about dating him again. But at the time I kinda didn't want to because I wanted to date guys that are my age that makes me more comfortable like Mitch or Jay. Dating someone older than me doesn't make me feel right. And it's kind of awkward. I mean I don't mind having a friend whose like older than me. It's just awkward. Sometimes I feel like I have a big hole in my love life where I can't find anybody that would want to date me. Like how i was the only deaf person in my grade in my school, and the rest of them thats in front of me is hearing?? I felt like it was weird for guys to date me because I'm deaf and that I have a CI and a HA and that they wouldn't want to date me. I was talking to a girl in the band about that and she just nodded and said "Yeah thats true." That kinda hurt. But then I told my friend Ashley at the dance and she said: "You know what?, If any guy saw you in that he's not the guy for you. You should just put your hand up and walk away. And that any guy would think you're special the way you are now." That made me feel better. But the truth is that I'm still feeling like no guys would date me because of my CI and HA. I still feel like that to them. Even though i have good friends now than before, I still feel like that. And I don't know how to fix that part. I always leave my hair down to hide my CI and HA so nobody would think as me as weird. I don't wear my FM system in front of my crush in my one class that I have with him. And I don't sign as much to my interpreter in front of my crush. Don't get me wrong, I'm proud of being deaf. It's just that the fact I'm kind of uncomfortable with showing guys that they would see me as the weird girl with CI and HA...:Oops:
