"I told you it would be alright"

[JoeyDeafNinja]

I told you it would be alright.....but I guess I lied. There is nothing more in the world that I would give to change your mind. But if there was some way that you could forgive me then I would galdy take it to my heart. I dont think that I'll ever be able to forgive myself. So how could you ever forgive me? But I'm keeping all of my strength to hold my spirits high to keep my hopes up so that you will see that I was stupid and didnt realize what I was doing. Just going with the flow but I thought it would be allright. But I guess I was wrong. There is nothing more in the world that I would give to turn you around make you see my life the way it really is. It is Hell. I've got to admit. But I'm not the only one that needs you in my life but I'm gonna trust my instincs and just go with the flow because you are all I wanted. You are all I've needed but you turned away and I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you. I guess I'll leave you alone but every night I lay awake in my bed, thinking of you and when I see the stars. I remeber you telling me all of your dreams and when I see you smile. It breaks my heart to know that you never comming back. I should have told you that I was crazy for you but then one night I had to go and screw it up and I told you I would be fine. I told you it was cool but I let you down and I want you to know that I'm thinking of you. My heart is breaking into pieces and falling down the drain. My heart is wrapped in barbwire and is constanly stabbed by your insults but you helped me through this life and I miss you. I hope you are listening to this because I want you to know that I still want you.

It was wrote few years ago, I somehow found it in my notes, so I thought I just pull it out and fix some errors then post here. I am not sure which I wrote this or my brother wrote. But It impacted me.