I am about to start something next week, and I'm looking forward to it. The funny thing is, as long as I have known about Krown and its deaf-owned status, it still strikes me as odd as a dog cooking dinner or a bear teaching astronautics. I say that because I just have a hard time believing that I will be able to live up to my potential doing what I do well on my own, and get paid for it. I've been a wage earner all my adult life, working for someone else, especially kids who think they're all THAT as managers, and have wanted to die over it at times. It's just hard to believe that my potential may get realized someday. What about my Dad or my Mom's potential? Why did they have to suffer such hardship and be deprived of their potential manifestation? Will I suffer the same fate? Do I deserve the same fate no matter how hard I try? This is the S* I have to deal with in my life. Sometimes, it's hard to envision myself as standing on my own two feet rather than living on government assistance.
Let's see what next year brings. Maybe my wanderings in the shifting sands of uncertainty has drawn me nearer to more fertile grounds.