I was born hearing and grew up interacting with my world using a hearing mind set. I suddenly became profoundly deaf in both ears about five years ago at the age of 59. I do not have CIs or HAs. I hear no sound at all. For me, becoming deaf after living so many years in the hearing world and understanding my self and my place in life as a hearie, suddenly being deaf was a big adjustment. From reading various blogs and this forum, I realize that I'm not alone in feeling somewhat awkward in both the hearing and deaf communities. And yes it is difficult dealing with hearing people who expect me to hear because I can talk. Sometimes I think I will just stop talking but it's such a habit after all of these years, lol. I took up ASL last year and unfortunately, I still pretty much butcher the language. I sometimes despair of ever becoming fluent in it. But I have no plans to give up trying because in my heart I feel more part of the deaf world than the hearing. I don't identify myself as a hearing person any more. Even when I am dreaming, I dream I am deaf and attempt to sign. I have accepted that I will probably never be truly embraced by the Deaf community, but my main desire is to communicate and at least be a small part of the deaf community at large.