"Do I really have a mental illness?"
Yes.
"I whined so much."
I can see that.
"When I tried to stop whining... I can't"
Yeah, because you like to whine.
"I whine about gay, whine about my face, whine about my money, whine about everything..."
That's because you wish you're straight, good looking, rich, and comfortable.
"Even the relay operator got tired of me whining."
Yeah, they don't like you.
"I called collection agency and harassed them, they hung up on me."
Wow, they hung up on you? That's amazing! I am sure many people would like that ability to make them hung up!
"Then I get so depressed... I get into deep deep deep thought...
Stareing at the wall...Then I cried. What is wrong with me?"
Because you are a loser. That's why.
"I don't get angry. And people said I am nice and sweet..."
Because you're nothing but a gaudy fag trying to appease people.
"my mom yelled at me, "SHUT UP!!!" She went on vacation to get away from me."
She's sick of you. Leave her alone.
"What is wrong with me?"
You're sick. That's what's wrong.
"My therapist gave me some medication... but I won't take it cause I am scare it may be poison."
Maybe it is. So what? Do you want to keep whining and drive people crazy? That medication could seriously make your life much better. You never know.
Honestly, if I am told I have a terminal illness and I have a year to live, I'd just live to my fullest - I'd max out my credit cards, party, and enjoy my life... til I drop dead. I'd like to die knowing that I didn't whine for a year.
Yes.
"I whined so much."
I can see that.
"When I tried to stop whining... I can't"
Yeah, because you like to whine.
"I whine about gay, whine about my face, whine about my money, whine about everything..."
That's because you wish you're straight, good looking, rich, and comfortable.
"Even the relay operator got tired of me whining."
Yeah, they don't like you.
"I called collection agency and harassed them, they hung up on me."
Wow, they hung up on you? That's amazing! I am sure many people would like that ability to make them hung up!
"Then I get so depressed... I get into deep deep deep thought...
Stareing at the wall...Then I cried. What is wrong with me?"
Because you are a loser. That's why.
"I don't get angry. And people said I am nice and sweet..."
Because you're nothing but a gaudy fag trying to appease people.
"my mom yelled at me, "SHUT UP!!!" She went on vacation to get away from me."
She's sick of you. Leave her alone.
"What is wrong with me?"
You're sick. That's what's wrong.
"My therapist gave me some medication... but I won't take it cause I am scare it may be poison."
Maybe it is. So what? Do you want to keep whining and drive people crazy? That medication could seriously make your life much better. You never know.
Honestly, if I am told I have a terminal illness and I have a year to live, I'd just live to my fullest - I'd max out my credit cards, party, and enjoy my life... til I drop dead. I'd like to die knowing that I didn't whine for a year.
that's all deafilmedia knows how to do is go on rant, go off the topic and unintelligible talking.
