I'm 41 yrs old. I lost my father when I was 21 and he was almost 60. I have 5 older siblings. I lost my mother when I was 33 yrs old and she was almost 70. I had been thru the griefings TWICE. It was very, very painful. It was so awful!!!!! I loved my parents so, so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Very, very close relationships!!
Now, I am so afraid to lose my husband or my children because I don't want to go thru the griefing again sooner. I reallly really am so precious of my husband and my children. My daughter is almost 13 and my son is 10. It's not very funny!!!
When my Dad died, I was so very, very sad for a while and then, I was okay but then my Mom died, I got very, very angry and I blamed to God very, very bad and then, God talked to me in my dream when I was sleeping. I was so shocked and now, I am much closer to God and am very, very happy. But I still don't want to have another griefing sooner - too much painfuls. God told me not to worry because my husband, my kids and I will live much longer than my parents' ages when they died. I hope that was His messages. God gave me a lot of supports which was wonderful.