ha........
some countries, they take anyone with any sort of disabilities...even if nothing major and orphan them or lock them away in "nut houses" to die a tragic death. I have read and seen many like this in documentaries, its sad. They claim that they are "worthless to society"
I saw a documentary on this on TV ,the kids when chained to their cribs and never given any attention . It was heartbreaking to watch . My dad had a joke about me he would tell people. A guy has a jackass and send it all over the world and it came back a jackass. That is my daughter --- , meaning me. Made you feel real special hearing your dad say this.
You should have poked a sharp object in his eye every time he told that joke. Or, kicked him as hard as you could right in the shins.
Do it while laughing at his joke.
I use to have dreams about killing him or lie in bed at night and think of ways
to kill him.
Years ago, I would have said how very wrong it was for you to do that. But, I haven't ever been constantly abused by either of my parents, or even constantly humiliated by them the way you have described your father has done to you. I now think it is perfectly normal human behavior to plot a vindictive retaliation against someone who is constantly abusive. Exponentially more so, if the person is supposed to show love, guidance and protect his little girl from harm.