Steel X
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Hey ADers,
I know I didnt tell you guys about me having a g/f, but of course I did...and I was too busy to tell you that..but anyway, if you want me to hear you a story, then listen up, ladies and gentelmen.
I've met a very incredible nice and funny person since high school, and I've asked her to the prom, and she said yes but then I was like a happy freak all month until she told me she can't because of our age...she was in 10th grade and I was in 12th. But the actual cause is that her stepmother controls everything in her life...her hobbies, her personality, her taste, etc...because she wants her to be exactly like her stepmother, who practically dates guys her own race. Yes, she's black and I'm white but who gives a fuck? only her stepmother did and she sure was a hyprocrite. I never met her though.
One year later after my graduation, she still has my phone number, my address, my e-mail, everything after one whole year without seeing eachother and just around mid July, she asked if I'm free and could go out with her or whatever like that and it was actually my first date with her and it went pretty well, actually. my first real kiss and everything...it was pretty cool.
Just after afew more dates, things were getting out of control because she kept asking for money and starts having attiude problems, etc...and I was worried that if it keeps up, there may be no way that I could survive the relationship with leslie. alot of people tells me that she's kind of crazy and hits on all white guys in the school and shit like that...she NEVER has any money of her own, and she doesn't have a job yet but she is old enough to get one now. she's 17 and I'll be 20 this october. I'm still searching for a job and it is indeed pretty difficult but there's a new shopping center opening up near my house and I already got some applications signed there anyway...
Anyway, I do love her dearly and she is definetly very important to me and all, but I just can't stand it when she kept asking me for money and I get broke alot of times and my friends tell me she is taking advage of me, using me to buy her things...what she needs and what she wants, etc...and I'm only just doing it because I'm nice.
One day we got into a nasty fight and it wasn't pretty...around noon we went to blockbuster to rent a movie, and she wanted to rent "barber shop 2" so then you know her TV with captions doesn't work...and she has a computer next to the TV that can play DVDs and oblviously will work with showing subtitles because a friggin computer has EVERYTHING! anyway, she complained that the monitor is too small and her family don't get used to watching movies that has subtitles and then we kept arguing that I deserve the respect to watch it because i'm the one WHO paid for it! But anyway, just after that nasty fight, I wrote a long letter and I mean LONG! long letter telling her exactly what I feel about her and that I don't think we were right for eachother and shit like that...then she got pissed at what I said. I never said we should break up but I just said we should only take time and space from eachother for awhile and then just after a week, I asked her if she've given any thought about us yet and she said she's still thinking...and my friends tell me that if she is still thinking, then it's a sign that my relationship has been put to an end. They tell me to forget her and move on but I dont want to do that because I'm trying to work it out with her. I was only telling her the truth...not tryin to break her heart! certainly I said alot of cussing in the letter but still, I was only trying to be honest.
A week and ahalf later, after I've went back to college and have some assassignment to do in my photography class, and I called leslie on the relay service if I can come over and take some pictures and stuff like that, she said fine but said not to take any pictures of her cousins or her anything inside the house...I dont see whats the big deal of that but I guess her relatives are still mad at me for breaking up with her but it was a misunderstanding...I never said that we should break up but just said we need some time apart..sheesh. After I was done taking the pictures, she said that she has to go somewhere and so I was on the way, but then I shake hands with her aunt and uncle telling them see ya later and then I tried to hug leslie but she wanted a handshake instead...and then I walked out and drove back home and then talked to her on relay service again and told her why she rejected the hug from me, etc...said she's not comfortable about it because of the letter...and I told her to make up her mind...and she tells me that it is inapporiate to tell a girl to make up her mind about the relationship...well she already felt uncomfortable giving me a hug so what does that mean? it proably means she doesn't like me anymore but then she tells me that she already has a b/f at school and didn't even bother to tell me that already...I was so mad that I just cut off and went back to her house and got my movies she borrowed from me back...and then when I got here, she threw the movies in my truck and then walked away, and I dash out of here but then I changed my mind and turned around, asking her to get inside my truck and take her to her cousin's place while we talk.
I tell her that I do indeed make alot of mistakes and say alot of ugly things and hurt other people that I care about...and that I have a reason of writing the letter...because I was only trying to show her how exactly I feel about her...etc...and she tells me that she doesn't date jackass who acts immature and barks at dogs and shit like that...but then why would she be immature too anyway? she was the one who gave me the bird after we find out that subtitles would oblviously work on her computer and she acts like she doesnt want to watch it with subtitles anyway...then why would she bother dating a deaf guy?? and she was the one who called me the worst driver ever after I was helping her take some boxes to her new apartment, and I was actually new to the apartments and I did get lost but hey I'm human and I always try to find the best way to get to places in time. she acts like I shouldn't drive at all and gets to her place late and shit like that but dammit I can't drive THAT fast and is trying to be a safe driver and shit.
She told me not to call, not to write, or even come over by surprise at her apartment anymore...and then well, thats when I really cried...yeah I dont even remember the last time I cried...breaking up with a girl that I really cared for and thought that she showed the world to me...you know? she's like everything to me and all...and then she stopped talking and then gave me a hug while I was still brawling and told her that I wanted to fix our mistakes and try to make things better to improve our relationship and stuff like that...
She said that the only way to make up for our mess is to become friends and I said okay that we can be friends for now...she knows that I do really love her but I just dont know if she really understands about the mess she was actually causing...but I dont care anyway because I think being friends is better for now...
she tells me that she doesn't really have a REAL b/f but she did kiss him and stuff...but I dont really care anymore since she said we can still hang out and stuff. my brother thinks she was lying about having a b/f at school because she just wants to make me feel bad or whatever like that.
We've finally made up, and she told me to call her again this weekend and we may do some things we normally do when we were a couple...go to the movies, play pool, eat out, etc...so I'm just glad that she would give me a chance to see her again and all so I dont know if we would ever be back together or not but if she wants to be back together, then just one FINAL chance would be enough...but I'm gonna be patient and let her decide about us later on.
Do you think it was fair that we are friends now? some people tells me that it's proably not a good idea to be friends with someone after you break up because they proably would beg you back and then use you again and shit like that...but I just hope leslie won't do that anymore after we are friends now and if it goes well, we might be back together so I dunno but just have to take time for now.
I just want her to be happy, thats all.
So what do you think of my story so far?
(obliviously this is the longest post I've ever posted in a long time lol)
I know I didnt tell you guys about me having a g/f, but of course I did...and I was too busy to tell you that..but anyway, if you want me to hear you a story, then listen up, ladies and gentelmen.
I've met a very incredible nice and funny person since high school, and I've asked her to the prom, and she said yes but then I was like a happy freak all month until she told me she can't because of our age...she was in 10th grade and I was in 12th. But the actual cause is that her stepmother controls everything in her life...her hobbies, her personality, her taste, etc...because she wants her to be exactly like her stepmother, who practically dates guys her own race. Yes, she's black and I'm white but who gives a fuck? only her stepmother did and she sure was a hyprocrite. I never met her though.
One year later after my graduation, she still has my phone number, my address, my e-mail, everything after one whole year without seeing eachother and just around mid July, she asked if I'm free and could go out with her or whatever like that and it was actually my first date with her and it went pretty well, actually. my first real kiss and everything...it was pretty cool.
Just after afew more dates, things were getting out of control because she kept asking for money and starts having attiude problems, etc...and I was worried that if it keeps up, there may be no way that I could survive the relationship with leslie. alot of people tells me that she's kind of crazy and hits on all white guys in the school and shit like that...she NEVER has any money of her own, and she doesn't have a job yet but she is old enough to get one now. she's 17 and I'll be 20 this october. I'm still searching for a job and it is indeed pretty difficult but there's a new shopping center opening up near my house and I already got some applications signed there anyway...
Anyway, I do love her dearly and she is definetly very important to me and all, but I just can't stand it when she kept asking me for money and I get broke alot of times and my friends tell me she is taking advage of me, using me to buy her things...what she needs and what she wants, etc...and I'm only just doing it because I'm nice.
One day we got into a nasty fight and it wasn't pretty...around noon we went to blockbuster to rent a movie, and she wanted to rent "barber shop 2" so then you know her TV with captions doesn't work...and she has a computer next to the TV that can play DVDs and oblviously will work with showing subtitles because a friggin computer has EVERYTHING! anyway, she complained that the monitor is too small and her family don't get used to watching movies that has subtitles and then we kept arguing that I deserve the respect to watch it because i'm the one WHO paid for it! But anyway, just after that nasty fight, I wrote a long letter and I mean LONG! long letter telling her exactly what I feel about her and that I don't think we were right for eachother and shit like that...then she got pissed at what I said. I never said we should break up but I just said we should only take time and space from eachother for awhile and then just after a week, I asked her if she've given any thought about us yet and she said she's still thinking...and my friends tell me that if she is still thinking, then it's a sign that my relationship has been put to an end. They tell me to forget her and move on but I dont want to do that because I'm trying to work it out with her. I was only telling her the truth...not tryin to break her heart! certainly I said alot of cussing in the letter but still, I was only trying to be honest.
A week and ahalf later, after I've went back to college and have some assassignment to do in my photography class, and I called leslie on the relay service if I can come over and take some pictures and stuff like that, she said fine but said not to take any pictures of her cousins or her anything inside the house...I dont see whats the big deal of that but I guess her relatives are still mad at me for breaking up with her but it was a misunderstanding...I never said that we should break up but just said we need some time apart..sheesh. After I was done taking the pictures, she said that she has to go somewhere and so I was on the way, but then I shake hands with her aunt and uncle telling them see ya later and then I tried to hug leslie but she wanted a handshake instead...and then I walked out and drove back home and then talked to her on relay service again and told her why she rejected the hug from me, etc...said she's not comfortable about it because of the letter...and I told her to make up her mind...and she tells me that it is inapporiate to tell a girl to make up her mind about the relationship...well she already felt uncomfortable giving me a hug so what does that mean? it proably means she doesn't like me anymore but then she tells me that she already has a b/f at school and didn't even bother to tell me that already...I was so mad that I just cut off and went back to her house and got my movies she borrowed from me back...and then when I got here, she threw the movies in my truck and then walked away, and I dash out of here but then I changed my mind and turned around, asking her to get inside my truck and take her to her cousin's place while we talk.
I tell her that I do indeed make alot of mistakes and say alot of ugly things and hurt other people that I care about...and that I have a reason of writing the letter...because I was only trying to show her how exactly I feel about her...etc...and she tells me that she doesn't date jackass who acts immature and barks at dogs and shit like that...but then why would she be immature too anyway? she was the one who gave me the bird after we find out that subtitles would oblviously work on her computer and she acts like she doesnt want to watch it with subtitles anyway...then why would she bother dating a deaf guy?? and she was the one who called me the worst driver ever after I was helping her take some boxes to her new apartment, and I was actually new to the apartments and I did get lost but hey I'm human and I always try to find the best way to get to places in time. she acts like I shouldn't drive at all and gets to her place late and shit like that but dammit I can't drive THAT fast and is trying to be a safe driver and shit.
She told me not to call, not to write, or even come over by surprise at her apartment anymore...and then well, thats when I really cried...yeah I dont even remember the last time I cried...breaking up with a girl that I really cared for and thought that she showed the world to me...you know? she's like everything to me and all...and then she stopped talking and then gave me a hug while I was still brawling and told her that I wanted to fix our mistakes and try to make things better to improve our relationship and stuff like that...
She said that the only way to make up for our mess is to become friends and I said okay that we can be friends for now...she knows that I do really love her but I just dont know if she really understands about the mess she was actually causing...but I dont care anyway because I think being friends is better for now...
she tells me that she doesn't really have a REAL b/f but she did kiss him and stuff...but I dont really care anymore since she said we can still hang out and stuff. my brother thinks she was lying about having a b/f at school because she just wants to make me feel bad or whatever like that.
We've finally made up, and she told me to call her again this weekend and we may do some things we normally do when we were a couple...go to the movies, play pool, eat out, etc...so I'm just glad that she would give me a chance to see her again and all so I dont know if we would ever be back together or not but if she wants to be back together, then just one FINAL chance would be enough...but I'm gonna be patient and let her decide about us later on.
Do you think it was fair that we are friends now? some people tells me that it's proably not a good idea to be friends with someone after you break up because they proably would beg you back and then use you again and shit like that...but I just hope leslie won't do that anymore after we are friends now and if it goes well, we might be back together so I dunno but just have to take time for now.
I just want her to be happy, thats all.
So what do you think of my story so far?
(obliviously this is the longest post I've ever posted in a long time lol)
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