It is what it is...

[Taylor]

"It is what it is..."
That is a term I learned from a fellow officer and it holds true. First, its good to back after being gone for a month. I am deeply troubled about what took place while I was gone. The threads that were created about me...and then the constant attacking when I was not here to defend myself. Well, I'm here now and I expect that I will be banned for posting the following, and this post will likely be removed or edited. I did realize that there is definately a double standard that exists....those in the inner circle and then those on the outside. Here is a message that I sent to Alex, as many of you sent me message requesting I address the issue. I also appreciate those members who defended me, and those that sent me information that my personal information was being given out to other members without my knowledge or permission (isn't this what CCSinned was banned for?) Here is what has transpired in the past couple of hours:

Alex,
I wanted to touch base with you about a couple of things.

First, I do not know where you and I stand, and do not know if I am still welcome here at AD. I will leave that up to you.

I have returned back home from school for the time being and am reading a lot of things. I noticed several people say that I'm 'in hiding' or scared to show my face. I went off to school before you even posted what you did....and I'm a little upset that you did not say something to me prior to posting what you did. If you had questions for me, I would have been more than happy to answer them. You were given my private information for this reason. I do not know if you were able to speak with the people in Howard or Baltimore in regards to the instance. Instead, you challenge me in public when I'm not even around to defend myself...that part troubles me that you would do that (but then again, what does my opinion matter).

Additionally, while I was away, I received several text messages on my phone from various members of AD rubbing it in my face that they a) now knew my full name, and b) knew where I worked and how to get in touch with me. How is it these people got this information after it was given to you? You personally told me yourself that you gave the information to a male and that was it. But, you have refused to tell me who that male is. Don't you think it would have been considerate of you to ask me before you started passing my information around? Again, this is not something I expected to happen.

So, when I get back, I also find more e-mails from people with this same personal information. What I find funny is that ALL of them say that it came from Sarah (FelixKat). How is this possible? Could the male you gave the information to be Jeremy? If so, again, why did you not ask me? And, if you look at previous threads, you obviously know that Sarah has had an issue with me for several months (more on that in a minute). I'm also told that you and her are fairly close....so it all starts to make a little sense.

The part that I find humorous about it is that it was Sarah who got the ball rolling on this. It was her that contacted me to say that Steel X was dealing in child porn. Her accusation was the very first thing that got any kind of police involved. It was while that was being checked out, that Steve came into the picture. I have since learned that 2hot4you was actually there because of SteelX. The thing with him is that everything came back clean and there was absolutely no evidence found by anyone that he was dealing in child porn or was there any indication that he had any involvement in such trash. I then confronted Sarah about that, as I was told that it was all a ploy on her part to get him in trouble. While that was going on, that is when Steve came into the picture and began chatting with 2hot4you.

I posted a thread about what happened with Sarah but left her information out of it and did not tell members that was who started it, nor did I say that there accusations made by her against SteelX. I feel that would not be fair to either one of them, even though I was pissed that she used me the way she did. I tried to be the adult and not post that kind of trash. I know you guys are friends, but feel that I have a right to defend myself and discuss it. She was smart know that I would keep my mouth shut about it and that gave her free reign to say anything about me she wanted and I would not speak up about it to save her some embarrassment. So, now I see where that got me. You publicly attack me without giving me the opportunity to defend myself..and when you were told that I was out of town and could not post, you did not speak up about it (as far as I can tell) Then I find out you two are friends and she is passing out my personal information to everyone willy nilly. Why do you not have a problem with that? How did CCSinned get banned for doing such a thing (and I'm not saying he should not have been banned because he should have been for doing that)...I just dont understand why its OK for some people and not others. I am also pissed that she was given the information in the first place, and I was kind of shocked when it happened.

Because I have been trashed publicly about it, and there are many conversations on AIM and yahoo about it (and other chat rooms), I feel that I have a right to speak on my own behalf...the difference here is I wanted to address it with you before even speaking about it...and wish you would have given me the same respect. I'd almost bet money that you could care less about this message and I would not be welcome anymore.

The mods are aware that no "Steve" issue is to be discussed. I already reminded them today. If you see him being brought up, hit the report button.

Thanks.

That was not really my point. The point was me being attacked because of your post, saying that me and 2hot4you were the same person...thats what was said and discussed and many people believe it to be true..then when I do not respond, its said that I am in hiding and have run away, therefore it MUST be true that i was lying. Because you publicly posted that stuff, I was asking that you at least say what you found out through your phone calls to my department and the other departments. There were messages I received saying that I was not even a cop at all.

Like I said before, we can talk about THAT when I get back from my vacation. Right now I don't know the facts. Need various sources that say it is true and that a real investigation occurred on my site.

More on that later, that is if you're still around when I get back.

OK...I guess thats the way it is then. You apparently given out my personal information and then say what you just said to me. But, I guess I expected more than that response and did not expect you to brush it off. I guess you needed a reason to ban me for whatever reason, and its easier to say things in public and then disseminate my personal information and then just say Too bad and for me to deal with it with the hopes of that I would just disappear. Im not sure where our friendship went sour or for whatever reason, but so be it.

First of all, I didn't give out your info, I only asked Jeremy to call this number since he's hearing and I'm not.

Secondly, I'd rather have us talk one on one when I get back, and get some things straight before I can honestly say that you were right all along. This is not something I'm going to let go easily because as a result of the "investigation" I lost members, site traffic, and the mods and I were disrespected and bashed at because they thought we were "protecting" sexual predators on my site.

That's all for now. We'll discuss more when I get back.

Later.

How the heck am I supposed to know what went on between you and Jeremy, including Sarah, in the past? I wasn't given the details about it so I didn't know. Jeremy was the only person around when I needed to borrow a hearing ear, so I used him.

Bye.

OK...you are right and I am wrong. I should not be upset that it was given out at all, no matter who it was without my permission. Guess I am just blowing things out of proportion and should let it go, right? Go figure

Perhaps to save face, the goal is to push me away from alldeaf. I would like to think that was not the case, but I cannot find any other explanation why the owner of this site feels the need to not only call me at my place of employment (am I the only one who sees a problem with this), but then to start harrassing my supervisor about it (again, am I the only one who sees a problem). Then I learn that the information was given to somebody else without my knowledge or permission, and then passed around to other members...enough so that I am receiving messages at my work from members here. What is up with that? Then Alex will not even address the issue with me, and as far as I know, nothing has been said to Sarah about passing it around. And the personal information and personal problems told to me by other people are kept in private...yet those same people see have the audacity to pass other peoples issues and personal info around. I could always get even and pass those secrets around, but that would be a problem and not a solution. Some people just need to grow up.

And to think, the person who is passing all of my info around and saying I'm lying is the same person who got the police involved in the first place by telling me SteelX was dealing in child porn (not true btw). Then attacks me because the cops are involved..and then has a personal issue with me because SteelX was never arrested...and its been personal ever since.

I'd almost bet this will be my final thread here (I truly hope this were not the case, but obviously there is a recurring problem with me and obviously doing something wrong to alienate people here)..so Alex has succeeded and so has Sarah. Thanks to all that have been friendly with me over the past couple of years that I've been here...To those that supported me when my sister passed away and when I was severely injured and in the hospital, your thoughts and prayers went a long way. To those that know me well enough, know how to contact me off of this board....and I do not mean those of you who have been calling my place of employment

 

[SpiceHD]

i hope taylor wont get banned for this... after all.. he got right to stand up for himself since he wasnt here to defend himself during that time.

 

[Alex]

That goes to show how unprofessional Taylor really is. Was this even necessary? No.

I've saved all your conversations and I'm saving this thread for future reference as well. I'm not going to give up until I know for a fact, from various sources, if Taylor was honest or not the entire time. If I have to, I'll get a lawyer to get on this case.

Taylor, FYI, I have called these numbers that you gave me. I spoke with different officers, including Sgt. Kenneth Parks from the Baltimore Police Department, and none of them had a clue about this so-called investigation that happened here. It seems like that only officer that knows about this is you and only you.

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