I think you have a problem with your brain..Its not good thing that u are saying to me..so u should go to a Mental Doctor i mean "psychiatrist" i would say "psychologist"
Last i would say for you " Spalt and Mental Midget "
I have strange experience... in short, My deaf cousin, Who do love with me but i don't have feelings for her until her death..I never thought much about it myself until I was faced with the shock and undeniable truth of my cousin's death..there were also some more reasons which make me not to...