FadedRose
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I've been having really big issues with PTSD as a result of being stalked many, many years ago by an ex BF. For example I'll use my moms passing to describe what's going on. After my mom died I'd have panic attacks when I would see an ambulance heading towards my fathers home and I'd follow the ambulance, panicking the entire time. Another event I had was when I could not reach my father and I drove myself to the hospital in a panic that he was there and dying since my mother died so suddenly when I was 19. When this fear and panic grips me it's hard to shake. I had these PTSD episodes when I was 21 years old so it's been years since I've had any issues with anything...from the past.
I thought I delt with my stalking incident all those years ago and put it behind me but damn...I guess not. Here is what is going on and guys, I know this person very well and he's not stalking me at all. It's not that I think he is that is the problem. What is the problem is the fact that like my mother, certain things can trigger a PTSD episode and this is what has happened. It was a rather, or has been a series of rather incredible coinedences that I've ran into him a few times outside of where I typically see this person but he doesn't live too far from me so it is no big deal. The first time I saw him was behind my car. We were on the same road and he pulled up beside me. For some damn reason I started to panic and I got out my CD case and flipped through it just ignoring the fact he was behind me. Well, he pulled in front of me and turned around and looked at me, and drove off rather fast, making an ass of himself really. I was not impressed. The other time I was walking to a store through a parking lot and he showed up again but drove it towards me which I could not hear it until he was right up on me and didn't wave or anything just looked at me and drove off.
Now, I know what this sounds like and I can assure you and everyone else here that this is not happening. I've been truly stalked before and he isn't. I cannot mention or share where I know him from or anything else, not even in PMs so do not ask. I'd prefer to keep this as private as possible.
There have been other visits as well but I cannot share where those occur because that needs to remain private.
So, with these random appearances near me or behind my car...it has triggered PTSD from a past event and I find myself absolutly terrified to go anywhere by myself. If I even see anyone that looks like him I just panic.
This is getting stressful and I know it's just PTSD. Has anyone here delt with PTSD? if so, how can I break myself out of this damn thing? It's the most ridiculous thing I've ever gone through and the dumbest. I'm back to where I was all those years ago. Being stalked really does change your life, and even can affect you years down the road in which case I'm finding that out now.
anyone here have experience with this? PTSD in particular? If so how did you overcome it?
I thought I delt with my stalking incident all those years ago and put it behind me but damn...I guess not. Here is what is going on and guys, I know this person very well and he's not stalking me at all. It's not that I think he is that is the problem. What is the problem is the fact that like my mother, certain things can trigger a PTSD episode and this is what has happened. It was a rather, or has been a series of rather incredible coinedences that I've ran into him a few times outside of where I typically see this person but he doesn't live too far from me so it is no big deal. The first time I saw him was behind my car. We were on the same road and he pulled up beside me. For some damn reason I started to panic and I got out my CD case and flipped through it just ignoring the fact he was behind me. Well, he pulled in front of me and turned around and looked at me, and drove off rather fast, making an ass of himself really. I was not impressed. The other time I was walking to a store through a parking lot and he showed up again but drove it towards me which I could not hear it until he was right up on me and didn't wave or anything just looked at me and drove off.
Now, I know what this sounds like and I can assure you and everyone else here that this is not happening. I've been truly stalked before and he isn't. I cannot mention or share where I know him from or anything else, not even in PMs so do not ask. I'd prefer to keep this as private as possible.
There have been other visits as well but I cannot share where those occur because that needs to remain private.
So, with these random appearances near me or behind my car...it has triggered PTSD from a past event and I find myself absolutly terrified to go anywhere by myself. If I even see anyone that looks like him I just panic.
This is getting stressful and I know it's just PTSD. Has anyone here delt with PTSD? if so, how can I break myself out of this damn thing? It's the most ridiculous thing I've ever gone through and the dumbest. I'm back to where I was all those years ago. Being stalked really does change your life, and even can affect you years down the road in which case I'm finding that out now.
anyone here have experience with this? PTSD in particular? If so how did you overcome it?
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