A Letter To God

[AJ]

i dont know how to start this so i guess ill start by
saying; help me. i keep slowly keep falling deeper into
a depression. i dont hate my life, actually i think i have
a pretty good one, but im so damn home sick i cant stand
it anymore. i dont want to kill myself i just want to
come home. ive learned a lot within the past 23 years
and i think its enough. i know its selfish and everything,
i know there are a lot of people that want me here. ive
been drinking a lot to kill the pain. and i dont want
to do that because i do enjoy drinking alcohol, i dont want
to abuse it. so help me. ur the only dad ive ever known,
im ur child, help me. give me strength to get through this,
give me a comforting feeling, tell me u love me. i need
you to tell me you love me. i need to hear it. write it on
the wall or in the clouds, tell me when im dreaming. i just
really really need to hear it. i want u to hold me in ur arms
and rock me while the cherubs sing me to sleep. but, ill settle
for an "i love you". ok, anything. ill take anything. just help
me out. help me through this.


your child,
Andrew James

 

[ella]

i know the feeling..

god does love you and all you need to do inreturn is believe. You can't ask god to take your life because he already know how going to leave. I had to put aside my suicidal thought, my depression all my issues and think about what i wanted that was to not be broken. i prayed to god about it i screamed it to him, he came ,but it took time. That was in junior high... now 22. god will lead you into happiness