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Have you ever had suicidal thoughts or have tried it but survived it?

I overdosed on pills twice 9 years ago, and stabbed myself in the stomach with a knife about 3 years ago. All those came from when I was on anti depressant and anxiety pills. The pills made me a different person and I felt that my soul was gone and I didn't know who I was. My fiance kicked me out which was a good thing cuz it gave me a wake up call. I stopped taking the pills and felt soo much better and haven't had any suicidal thoughts lately.

Well, I got upset last week and drove off alone.. was thinking and thinking.. when i was thinking, it made me more upset and thought about hitting a tree but I didn't do it. I came home and took a deep breath and felt better.

If this is too personal for you to explain in here.. you don't have to say anything. For those who'd like to talk about it, I'd like to hear it. I was thinking maybe we could help each other.

I'm not sure if this is a repost or in the right thread but if it is a repost, I'm sorry. If its in the wrong thread, it can be moved.
 
once was about to try overdose with painkillers when I was stressed and verbal abused/yelled, look at my girls they must need me more so let me cry instead, will never ever think of trying a s... :cool:
 
Oh Yeah, I had attempt commit suicide once a long time ago, I was overdose on pills, I popped the whole bottle down my throat to my stomach, on sweetest day after walking in the apartment to where my bedroom is located at, and recovered my ex boyfriend who was my first long time love in bed having sex with a bimbo who happened to be my worst enemy. My feelings were all in mixed emotions, I wanted so bad to kick her ass then, I remember I started screaming on the top of my lungs saying Why???!!, the same time I was running tears. The bimbo, was just laying there smiling like it's no big deal, I just snapped and ran after her punched her in many places and drag her by the hair and threw her out naked. and threw her clothes out the window as well.

Then my ex boyfriend tried to calm me down, because I was going crazy out of my mind. I was so heartbroken I felt like a knife stabbed in the middle of my heart, not all that he even admit to me that it wasn't the only time he cheated on me, He cheated on me the whole six years that we've been together, and how he told me I was so blind and too trusting. I lost control and ran to the bathroom crying my eyes out, and went in the cabinet and popped pills down my throat. I end up laying on the bathroom floor and he phoned 911.
 
Cheri said:
Oh Yeah, I had attempt commit suicide once a long time ago, I was overdose on pills, I popped the whole bottle down my throat to my stomach, on sweetest day after walking in the apartment to where my bedroom is located at, and recovered my ex boyfriend who was my first long time love in bed having sex with a bimbo who happened to be my worst enemy. My feelings were all in mixed emotions, I wanted so bad to kick her ass then, I remember I started screaming on the top of my lungs saying Why???!!, the same time I was running tears. The bimbo, was just laying there smiling like it's no big deal, I just snapped and ran after her punched her in many places and drag her by the hair and threw her out naked. and threw her clothes out the window as well.

Then my ex boyfriend tried to calm me down, because I was going crazy out of my mind. I was so heartbroken I felt like a knife stabbed in the middle of my heart, not all that he even admit to me that it wasn't the only time he cheated on me, He cheated on me the whole six years that we've been together, and how he told me I was so blind and too trusting. I lost control and ran to the bathroom crying my eyes out, and went in the cabinet and popped pills down my throat. I end up laying on the bathroom floor and he phoned 911.
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if I saw on my own eye I would do the same thing u did, like he told me "fine i have slept at (name) house now u happy to know where i was last night" my piss off made me to throw a bowl there was cereal and milk to his face/head and I, ofc, cried out, same qq why??

and I m glad u re here
 
Cheri said:
Oh Yeah, I had attempt commit suicide once a long time ago, I was overdose on pills, I popped the whole bottle down my throat to my stomach, on sweetest day after walking in the apartment to where my bedroom is located at, and recovered my ex boyfriend who was my first long time love in bed having sex with a bimbo who happened to be my worst enemy. My feelings were all in mixed emotions, I wanted so bad to kick her ass then, I remember I started screaming on the top of my lungs saying Why???!!, the same time I was running tears. The bimbo, was just laying there smiling like it's no big deal, I just snapped and ran after her punched her in many places and drag her by the hair and threw her out naked. and threw her clothes out the window as well.

Then my ex boyfriend tried to calm me down, because I was going crazy out of my mind. I was so heartbroken I felt like a knife stabbed in the middle of my heart, not all that he even admit to me that it wasn't the only time he cheated on me, He cheated on me the whole six years that we've been together, and how he told me I was so blind and too trusting. I lost control and ran to the bathroom crying my eyes out, and went in the cabinet and popped pills down my throat. I end up laying on the bathroom floor and he phoned 911.
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:shock: oh my.. I went thru the same thing with my ex.. he slept with my bestfriend but i didn't think of trying to commit suicide then. I was furious and hurt. I didn't catch him and her in the act.. but I was told a year later that it happened. then about 6 months later, I kicked him out cuz I didn't love him anymore.
 
FreeWoman77 said:
if I saw on my own eye I would do the same thing u did, like he told me "fine i have slept at (name) house now u happy to know where i was last night" my piss off made me to throw a bowl there was cereal and milk to his face/head and I, ofc, cried out, same qq why??

and I m glad u re here
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Yeah, I was soo good to him, I never cheated, I worked full time, and we were suppose to get married, but he screw all that up by cheating. He was a horny freak that wants sex 24/7 when I work mornings to nights, but the only time I got off early was on sweetest day, He thought I'll be working late. I guess there was a time that I should know about him, I believe that it was meant for me to find out that he isn't the right one for me. I'm glad I did because if I haven't known about his cheating ways then we would been married and divorce already. After all that had happened it was very hard for me to trust men again, Took me a very long time to build that trust, and sometimes I do have a hard time with trusting, like having doubts if a guy really loves me or not.
 
Cheri said:
Yeah, I was soo good to him, I never cheated, I worked full time, and we were suppose to get married, but he screw all that up by cheating. He was a horny freak that wants sex 24/7 when I work mornings to nights, but the only time I got off early was on sweetest day, He thought I'll be working late. I guess there was a time that I should know about him, I believe that it was meant for me to find out that he isn't the right one for me. I'm glad I did because if I haven't known about his cheating ways then we would been married and divorce already. After all that had happened it was very hard for me to trust men again, Took me a very long time to build that trust, and sometimes I do have a hard time with trusting, like having doubts if a guy really loves me or not.
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Me too, i used to have a hard time trusting a guy whether he would cheat or not. this guy I have now is an awesome man, he is honest.. sometimes too honest that hurts my feelings but at least I know the truth. When I was with my ex husband i never trusted him since day one when I met him.. I was stupid and insecure at the time.
 
RebelGirl said:
:shock: oh my.. I went thru the same thing with my ex.. he slept with my bestfriend but i didn't think of trying to commit suicide then. I was furious and hurt. I didn't catch him and her in the act.. but I was told a year later that it happened. then about 6 months later, I kicked him out cuz I didn't love him anymore.
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It happened to me twice, Once with a girl that wasn't even my friend, second one was my best friend. But, I had a courage to dumped my best friend and boyfriend the same time. Friends don't do that to friends, no matter what. If they do then they're not your real friends. ;)
 
Cheri said:
It happened to me twice, Once with a girl that wasn't even my friend, second one was my best friend. But, I had a courage to dumped my best friend and boyfriend the same time. Friends don't do that to friends, no matter what. If they do then they're not your real friends. ;)
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that's right.. it took me a while to accept that my bestfriend wasn't a true friend.. we grew up together since we were in kindergarten. it was hard to let go at first... now i'm sooooo over her!!!!! zip. zilch.
 
RebelGirl said:
that's right.. it took me a while to accept that my bestfriend wasn't a true friend.. we grew up together since we were in kindergarten. it was hard to let go at first... now i'm sooooo over her!!!!! zip. zilch.
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Yeah, I know it's so hard and shocking the same time, You did good. :hug: You don't need a friend that betrayed you by sleeping with your boyfriend, I wouldn't put up with that either. Damn bimbos! LOL! Sorry, I felt like I'm hogging your thread. I'll let others have their chance to post. :giggle:
 
;) same here I used to work 2 jobs then 1 job due of having a first baby her father hasnt worked travelling to east coast for a mo nothing business really, our first daughter was only 1 mo I raised her by myself and he returned home with bad attitude, WTF? then found out he has cheated on me there with 2 women he begged for my forgive/chance, in 5 yrs recently again enough, he might have cheated on me but learned something to avoid me catching him I was told by many that he talked showing off name who he has blah blah I didnt believe in others u know it may be rumor now they may be right i feel so stupid :aw:
 
well i did been think about doing that several times but never get that closely. Once i did, took 17 pills by overdose. I didn't gone to hospital. Becuz they will forces me to special class. My parents been take care of me, keep me wake. Man it was so hard! and took me to cold shower. It did surely helped. after few hours. Finally feel so high, but less drowsy. My parents been check on me if i'm still wake or not. (depression from my ex hubby). After that, i wouldn't ever do it again.
 
Well, the short answer is yes, on and off... But never actually act on it. Not in mood to discuss at this moment.
 
No, I have never thought about something like this; I would not give anyone that kind of power over me.

I do feel for you, though; I am in education and I have seen my fair share of this with students.

The end of my 36 year career is FAST approaching; I will be retiring on February 16th, a few days from now!

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Tousi said:
No, I have never thought about something like this; I would not give anyone that kind of power over me.

I do feel for you, though; I am in education and I have seen my fair share of this with students.

The end of my 36 year career is FAST approaching; I will be retiring on February 16th, a few days from now!

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:shock: thought you were young
 
Oh wow .. I never take how many I take the pills for overdose.

One of my old friend that she took only 2 pills but my counsellor thought she took more than 8 to 10 or more so counsellor took her to hopstial very quickly!!!! and the doctor had to pump her tummy out from the black coal to clean her tummy out before risk it. I dont know why she tried to do something cause she was so stressful from sr.residence (dorm).
 
i was turned 16 yrs old, i admitted to my mom about my 3rd stepfather that he did touched my area when i was 4 and half yrs old, my mom, him and i lived in houtson, texas... he pulled my hand on his area to play, i dont know what that and i was scared... til we moved to alabama 84, he did to me again while my mom was sleep... so he made me to not tell anyone or even my mom or he will hurt me... so i got scared and hold myself til i turned 16 yrs old, i felt ready to tell my mom on the phone, i was at my dorm... she dont believe what i say.. so i got brokeheart and cried, i walked to kitchen and picked sharp butch knife and went to my room, walked in bathroom... i did cutted my left wrist and my roomate catched me, screamedddddd at houseparent and stopped me. and sent me to see nurse to checked on it... next day, they called my mom, she drove 2 hrs and half to came my school, i wont talk staff why i did that.. til my mom arrived, she looked at me, say why did u do that?? i told her U ARE FUCKIING NOT BELIEVE WHAT STEPFATHER DID TO ME???!!!!! with my cried... my staff calmed me down.. my mom say nutthin and upset... then she picked me up and went home for one week... we went counselor about that... stepfather made look a innocent, say didnt touch me UGH! got me upset, and cried... after gradated, we been fight lot, my mom tired of it, tried make us stopped fight.. i never along with him shyt! he been yelled, everything at my face.. he still with my mom , i been see his face everday, it still BOTHER ME!!!!! i still think of past.. i know it not good idea for me to think of past but he still around here and it bother me... rebelgirl and punkywolfy know about that... *tearing* excuse me for cry... sigh...

I CANT WAIT MOVE OUT OWN HOUSE MYSELF!!!! so i wont think of him, it help me lot..
 
Yes all the time when I was young. Seeing my nephews, my families and my son just woke me up and I stopped thinking about it. I still think about it when I am very deep depressed but I am on meds for Anxiety and Depression and Stress-that helps alots! So here I am!

:ily: to everyone on the world!
 
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