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I'm just curious about you guys.

Recently, when I picked my year book, 2002 one that I graduated in. I just looked at pictures, words, friends' writing, such like that. I remember almost everything happened in my High School, I miss that time a lot. Like... Hanging out with my two best friends, but they became not friends anymore and I don't even understand why that happened to them since I knew that one of them does hate other of ones, her ex boyfriend. But, why does she hate her? Which she's innocent for that. So, they are my best friends but they aren't each other's best friends. It's pretty hard for me to being with them because I sometime have to say, "I'm sorry that I have to hang out with my best friend and I will hang out with you next weekend", like that stuff.. But right now I'm living in other state which it's more than 2,000 miles away from them, of course I does miss them a lot. But sometime, I would wish that they would be best friends again and I will have the peace, of course I know that I cannot force them to do that but I only need them to be getting along that's all what I need from them. But one of my best friends admit to do that of course, but other of my best friends wouldn't do that... She have a scar on her mind and I don't know what it is, I want to know what's up before I goes to Michigan to visiting my family and friends soon since I only have few months left to go... And, also I miss myself in that sometime but I'm glad that I'm new person right now because that time, I was horrible person but of course, everybody did love me when I was in that time. Still, I wasn't good person for myself and my family but to my friends, wonderful friend of course... I was very glad that I improved myself before I started date with Sequoias. And, when I see few pictures of my family, I would cry in a second later. I couldn't live without them in my life. My life would be so empty without my friends and family. I'm very glad to be me instead of someone, I bet. Because I have my family who would support me no matter what if I'm deaf, retard, blind, hearing, or handicapped. And, same thing with my own friends would be my friend for who I am.. Likely with my boyfriend, Sequoias. He does love me for who I am also. I'm very pleasure with myself that I noticed that I am wonderful person for them. But I sometime wish I could be more than just wonderful, you know? Because, I don't feel like that it's not enough for them to getting from me. But, I know they would say it's enough what they get from me. I'm glad that I know it's enough for them but I sometime just feel like that way... I do hate to living far away from my family and friends, I know it's a life... But it's pretty tough on me. I sometime want them to know that I do miss them alot and love them alot also.

What about you guys? Does you feel like that way?
 
Yes I can understand because I had similiar experience as you for befriend to 2 persons who hate each other.

One of my friends is not happy that I'm friend of her emeny... I told her if she really want to value her friendship with me then respect my friendship with anyone, I choose to want to be friend with. It shows that if she trust to value her friendship with me and know that I won't play on both sides but listen and try to solve their problems... That's her loss if she don't want to respect my friendship with someone, she emeny with...

Yes, I know I am peacemaker sometimes... I did the same to people in real life and online...
 
I hated every second of high school. The people that I was friendly towards wanted nothing to do with me after graduation. I bumped into a high school "friend" outside of a gaming store in Rochester ("Millenium" for Rochesterians) and tried to chat with him for a while. He acted like I was annoying him so I left.

One person recognised me at MCC and said hello. Everyone else seemed to vanish.

Of the friends that I have made since I have come to realise that it is inevitable that they and I will drift apart unless we both engage in activities with each other on a regular basis. It sucks since I seem to expect to make friends for life.
 
yea i undy how ur feeling abt this.. i been grew up with my old ex best friend since 5 grade til 2003 but it keep going on and off best friend cuz of my ex best friend not honest, used me for ride, or more... so she got easy jealous of me everytime i hang out with my friends, trips, got new date.. she got mad and jealous of me.. i know it not supposed do jealous or mad... so til 2001, she asked me be god mother of her son, i was soo excited and got in labor with her.. til 2003, i already warned her that i will be busy trips in summer and stayed with my other best friend in texas for 2 weeks.. she say okay... so later she keep pgr me i was alike grrrr i dont have tty cuz of this time i was on bus on way back home ala... til i arrived home, my mom told me what happened, that my ex best friend called my mom, wanna $100.00 back since my mom and her agreed deal that my mom sell king bed to her, my ex best friend wanna buy from her, so my mom gave her $175.00 and pay 100 then next month 75.00 but she wanna 100 back and my mom say cant do that cuz of they made deal, plus my mom put 100 down on her new queen bed too late for that.. so my ex best friend told my mom that dont wanna me be god mother of her son, i got upset and hurt very bad... i decided stop see her and fed up with her shyt! tired of her on and off often and decided stopped see her since.. she wont pay her other 75.00, so i decided to sold her game PS1 and games got 65.00 and i added 10.00 to 75.00 and gave to my mom instead this.. i have a right do this...
so, now i havent see her since 4 yrs this may and OFC i still think of godson and i still had his pic and me together in frame pic on desk.. that pic, he was 1 yr old last time i took pic.. sigh.. i really miss him so much... my friends told me abt him, he turned smart mouth, learned from my ex best friend, got broke my heart to hear that.. sigh.. they know i wanna see him so bad but will he remmy me?? he is 5 yrs old, i dont think so he will remmy cuz of i saw him was 1 yr old... my ex best friend is in trouble and i am lucky not being with her, i have black heart now and not worry abt her anymore.. cuz of i dont wanna get hurt often.. it ENUFF TO ENUFF!


P.S. my ex best friend told my friends that she really wanna see me again, but my heart still black and refuse not see her.. FORGET IT.. i dont wanna this happen again.. nah!
 
I dont hang out any of my classmates from Mill Neck. I once a while hung out with my ex boyfriend/bestfriend from Cleary. I do not want to bother with my old classmates. We split after we graduated. We dont hang out. I knew where they are at now but didnt want to bother them or want to chat with them. We have our own lifes.
 
Well,
I am only gay guy in my deaf school..
Everyone like to chat with me and such cuz I'm a nice and awesome guy to them..
After reading urs stories..
It make me feel that I would be one of u someday..
*sigh* i knew it will happen to my lifetime.. oh well that's life..
 
High school friends drift apart and people change. There are some few that keep their friendships for life. That's normal.

I have never had what happened to u Sweetheart happen to me in high school.
 
Oh that was a good thread!

I am not sure how I'll react to see old friends at reunion this coming June. I will be HELL nervous!!!!!! I heard a lot are going sooo I may go though.

I am not sure if that really happened to me. Ummm BUT I did made a peace with a few friends. The rest hasn't made a peace with me because they don't reply me back. (before Email came along) So I dunno if we will become peace or not. We'll see. Only God know.

I've noticed my friends from my old school had changed and moved on. But some of them, I kept in touch with via Email or AIM.
 
LakeTahoe said:
Oh that was a good thread!

I am not sure how I'll react to see old friends at reunion this coming June. I will be HELL nervous!!!!!! I heard a lot are going sooo I may go though.

I am not sure if that really happened to me. Ummm BUT I did made a peace with a few friends. The rest hasn't made a peace with me because they don't reply me back. (before Email came along) So I dunno if we will become peace or not. We'll see. Only God know.

I've noticed my friends from my old school had changed and moved on. But some of them, I kept in touch with via Email or AIM.
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yea, u make me want to talk to my friends more often while I can because I might not keep in touch with some of them.. *sigh*
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Animal_Lover said:
i'm curious!
If u go to college and u still see ur college friends?
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I went to ASU for my BA degree and since it was such a huge campus, it was hard for me to make good friends.

Then I went to Gallaudet for my master's and yes, I still do keep in touch with my former classmates since many of us are teachers. One other former classmate works at the school where I work at.

As for high school, I do keep in touch with 2 people. My ex hubby (we graduated together) and my best friend that I have known since I was 1 year old. She now lives in PA and I was at her place last weekend. I think my friendship with her will last until the day we die.
 
shel90 said:
I went to ASU for my BA degree and since it was such a huge campus, it was hard for me to make good friends.

Then I went to Gallaudet for my master's and yes, I still do keep in touch with my former classmates since many of us are teachers. One other former classmate works at the school where I work at.

As for high school, I do keep in touch with 2 people. My ex hubby (we graduated together) and my best friend that I have known since I was 1 year old. She now lives in PA and I was at her place last weekend. I think my friendship with her will last until the day we die.
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Since one year old! wow that is Longest and bravest relationship I ever heard!
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Animal_Lover said:
Since one year old! wow that is Longest and bravest relationship I ever heard!
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yea, we met at the oral deaf school at 14 months old and we lived so close to each other so our parents would get us together on weekends or whatever when we were babies. Then, in elementary school, we remained in touch and visited each other as much as we can since we went to different schools. Finally, in middle school, we were able to attend the same school and things with us got rough cuz u know how that age is and then in high school, we kinda drifted apart cuz she was into cheerleading and I was into softball but always found time for each other. After high school, we still saw each other a lot (that was in Phx, AZ) and then she moved to PA in 1997. I was devastated and then in 99, I moved to MD to go to Gally and discovered that we only live 3 hours away from each other so we take turns visiting each other. Now, our girls are close friends so it is amazing and I feel blessed to have her in my life. :)
 
shel90 said:
yea, we met at the oral deaf school at 14 months old and we lived so close to each other so our parents would get us together on weekends or whatever when we were babies. Then, in elementary school, we remained in touch and visited each other as much as we can since we went to different schools. Finally, in middle school, we were able to attend the same school and things with us got rough cuz u know how that age is and then in high school, we kinda drifted apart cuz she was into cheerleading and I was into softball but always found time for each other. After high school, we still saw each other a lot (that was in Phx, AZ) and then she moved to PA in 1997. I was devastated and then in 99, I moved to MD to go to Gally and discovered that we only live 3 hours away from each other so we take turns visiting each other. Now, our girls are close friends so it is amazing and I feel blessed to have her in my life. :)
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Wow, interesting...
I wish I have a good friend relationship just like urs because I always get replace good friends ever since... oh well that life, I guess..
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Yeah, that's so sad about that stuff... Of course, I do accept that. But I will miss my old time with my friends as always :)
 
i always felt that my family wanted the best for me and it not working for me cuz living in michigan is getting worse for me they refused to let me go on my own they are holding me down GRR
it is not fair my brother and my sister did on their own why can't i do this so i am going to cutted them out for while to let them prove i can do this be independ and go on my own
and i am not getting along with my ex friend already cut her out of my life last oct when i found out that she was being bitching at me again

i undy how you feel sweetheart i would felt the same if i am 2,000 away in oregon right now
 
moonflower said:
i always felt that my family wanted the best for me and it not working for me cuz living in michigan is getting worse for me they refused to let me go on my own they are holding me down GRR

i am going to cutted them out to let them prove i can do this be independ and go on my own

i undy how you feel sweetheart i would felt the same if i am 2,000 away in oregon right now
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Yeah, I do know how feel to living in Michigan since I lived in Michigan for 21 years but of course, I love my home in Michigan because I lived there for many years and it's my always home no matter what it is. But, not happy in there. So my parents let me go to living in Washington State, they rather to seeing me happy than being depression. But two things that I'm not happy right now because of my family and friends, they live in Michigan which it's so suck. That's only thing that Im not happy that's all. But I do accept since it's life.
 
Sweetheart said:
Yeah, I do know how feel to living in Michigan since I lived in Michigan for 21 years but of course, I love my home in Michigan because I lived there for many years and it's my always home no matter what it is. But, not happy in there. So my parents let me go to living in Washington State, they rather to seeing me happy than being depression. But two things that I'm not happy right now because of my family and friends, they live in Michigan which it's so suck. That's only thing that Im not happy that's all. But I do accept since it's life.
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yes your are lucky to have family to let you go and live in washington state
but i undy how you feel hugs ya

why can't my family let me to be happy that is different but right now they are beginning to relized that i have to do what i need to do
 
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