MattyinAus
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Yep prove that. I don't have a bad attitude. Every time I'm happy I easily get a bad result from everything because everything in my life is way overestimated. So if I underestimate my life, I wouldn't be at uni at all. How surprised I am, nearly finished on 4 year degree and even going to US by a job acceptance. I did not expected that because I always get discriminated by my hearing loss.
Same for social environment. Uni social life for me is shitty as hell. I'm poor and can't make friends which I define friends as talking with, hang out with and 'include with'. Not fake Facebook friends like that or people pretend to accept you during at uni classes.
I had enough with this shitty life. More of expecting to have fun and awesome time in US but until I found out Park City is a party place, people going to live as party 24/7 houses and stuff very similar to college. Dirty houses makes me feel death. Now what!? Not again, leaving uni for place very similar to college lifestyle!? Jesus hell christ! When life gets easier for me since it has been way too hard all the time. Like it is hard to get a person to mention and include you to hang out without being faking and pretending? Now I am expecting to have very extremely hard time in America because of party places. On our facebook group page for the workers of the resort for this season, their facebook profiles have extremely large amounts of friends and heavy photo tags. Like over 1000 a piece. Im not comfortable with that because it define their life as party animals and people accept them easily.
Now how I am going to feel, sitting at a house in middle of party while being sober and very fit makes me feel so uncomfortable. I can't make friends like that because they are drunk same here at colleges on campus as well. Everywhere I go places where people drinks including my family go to clubs and pubs. I never feel comfortable and couldn't make friends and even girlfriends. Same shit happens here at uni for 4 solid years. My future looks so bleak and boring as hell.
Looks like I am going to be lonely traveller, world record bestest innocent virgin and that shit happens in movies and that.
Same for social environment. Uni social life for me is shitty as hell. I'm poor and can't make friends which I define friends as talking with, hang out with and 'include with'. Not fake Facebook friends like that or people pretend to accept you during at uni classes.
I had enough with this shitty life. More of expecting to have fun and awesome time in US but until I found out Park City is a party place, people going to live as party 24/7 houses and stuff very similar to college. Dirty houses makes me feel death. Now what!? Not again, leaving uni for place very similar to college lifestyle!? Jesus hell christ! When life gets easier for me since it has been way too hard all the time. Like it is hard to get a person to mention and include you to hang out without being faking and pretending? Now I am expecting to have very extremely hard time in America because of party places. On our facebook group page for the workers of the resort for this season, their facebook profiles have extremely large amounts of friends and heavy photo tags. Like over 1000 a piece. Im not comfortable with that because it define their life as party animals and people accept them easily.
Now how I am going to feel, sitting at a house in middle of party while being sober and very fit makes me feel so uncomfortable. I can't make friends like that because they are drunk same here at colleges on campus as well. Everywhere I go places where people drinks including my family go to clubs and pubs. I never feel comfortable and couldn't make friends and even girlfriends. Same shit happens here at uni for 4 solid years. My future looks so bleak and boring as hell.
Looks like I am going to be lonely traveller, world record bestest innocent virgin and that shit happens in movies and that.