Having a near death experience makes you want to live like everyday is your last . I have myasthenia gravis and epilepsy my life hasn't been easy but what I didn't do was . Make sure I'm happy we don't how long we will be here being DeafBlind and lesbian is so wild when I was younger my first love was a girl . I got married because I was told it was the right thing to do but he passed been scared to date and love again but when you get sick you start to want to be close to someone. I love woman and that's my choice I'm out and loving it . And I love God too ..