Yes i did pass out. I got sick and threw up and then i passed out. my life sucks. it really sucks. i went to a wedding and guess who showed up.... chris..... yes and i was so upset. he didn't say a word to me. i didn't even exist. that hurt so much. then i drank too much and got up and asked him how he felt and he said he didn't love me anymore and he already moved on. then i got my keys and drove. yes.. I drove.. drunk! i cried and cried because I have never driven drunk and i was terrified! sigh.. it was awful. I had to go to the bathroom sooooo bad so i pulled over to the side of the road and used the bathroom. while I was using the bathroom, I saw a lady that I hit coming up to me. I was so scared and i cried. I was screaming saying WHY????? pam, i'm such a wreck. my nerve system is messed up. i'm in a really bad shape.. i'm scared. really scared. so when i pulled up the driveway.. i told myself i didn't want jaci to see me like this so i drove over to my friend, christina's house. and drank more. then christina thought it was enough and i needed to go home.. so her friend drove me home. by the time i got to my room, i ran to the bathroom and threw up! now today, i'm soo fucking miserable. i'm just miserable. i'm frustrated... sigh I can't seem to heal like i should. I'm just sooo mad at Chris for showing up like that. He was so calm, smiling, laughing, enjoying it. I was there drinking my beer after another and moping around. pam, i'm having a hard time.. i wish someone would just stay with me because i'm terrified of being alone. for my life. seriously.. sigh i'm so sorry for not responding to you.. love you!
I got all night! I love your picture! very beautiful!
I'm doing alright, how are you? I've been thinking of you lately...
