so this is a good place to meet all deafies?? regardless of who they are? No judgemental or anything else like this? huh?
I am very shy and having hard time to socalizing with other deaf becasue of bad experiences I had in my whole life. I do have low self esteem and I do not think anyone would care about me that much as they would for others as if they favor them better than me. It looks to me in real life. I don't have lots of REAL friends. I know that they all do have their own lives and own families, and of course own friends, what really upsets me that none of them even give me just a simple hello, whether from IM or email - nothing, just like they does with their own worlds.
You see, I grew up being a lone deaf person in whole hearing family, that filled with no fluent communication in sign langauge, both parents being overprotective just because I am deaf, and not to mention all the abuses, physically, mentally and emotionally I suffered. these so -called friends that I thought I had knew about what I went thru and they decide just feel sorry for me and move on leaving me out. I live in my own dark and lonely world. When I was growing up, I would spend hours and hours of time when I was not in school or on summer, stayed home and watching reruns all nights, reading, and do nothing. I was not allowed to go out with friends, not even at 18. I had good grades in school and graduated with high honors. But my parents expected to me to be the good girl and must follow their high expectations in old fashioned way.
I am adult now and have good full time job in real world, and still no deaf friends I can talk to or hang out with. Well I don't blame them, Who wants a friends who find very very boring, cheap, with no full of life, and nothing give what they want or look for, huh?
I wonder what my life would be like or where I would be if not for my hubby who is not everything I would hope for in a guy on same level so I can fall in love, and spend rest of life with them who "saved" my life and my sanity. But still- god forbid if somehting happend to him, what will happend to me and who can I turn to?
well that's fine you dont want to give me a hoot about my boring life. I undy. I can see you are all too busy with your lives in your own worlds. I can live with being "non-existant" like I am not there, to everyone. I am used to it all my whole life.
I am very shy and having hard time to socalizing with other deaf becasue of bad experiences I had in my whole life. I do have low self esteem and I do not think anyone would care about me that much as they would for others as if they favor them better than me. It looks to me in real life. I don't have lots of REAL friends. I know that they all do have their own lives and own families, and of course own friends, what really upsets me that none of them even give me just a simple hello, whether from IM or email - nothing, just like they does with their own worlds.
You see, I grew up being a lone deaf person in whole hearing family, that filled with no fluent communication in sign langauge, both parents being overprotective just because I am deaf, and not to mention all the abuses, physically, mentally and emotionally I suffered. these so -called friends that I thought I had knew about what I went thru and they decide just feel sorry for me and move on leaving me out. I live in my own dark and lonely world. When I was growing up, I would spend hours and hours of time when I was not in school or on summer, stayed home and watching reruns all nights, reading, and do nothing. I was not allowed to go out with friends, not even at 18. I had good grades in school and graduated with high honors. But my parents expected to me to be the good girl and must follow their high expectations in old fashioned way.
I am adult now and have good full time job in real world, and still no deaf friends I can talk to or hang out with. Well I don't blame them, Who wants a friends who find very very boring, cheap, with no full of life, and nothing give what they want or look for, huh?
I wonder what my life would be like or where I would be if not for my hubby who is not everything I would hope for in a guy on same level so I can fall in love, and spend rest of life with them who "saved" my life and my sanity. But still- god forbid if somehting happend to him, what will happend to me and who can I turn to?
well that's fine you dont want to give me a hoot about my boring life. I undy. I can see you are all too busy with your lives in your own worlds. I can live with being "non-existant" like I am not there, to everyone. I am used to it all my whole life.
here and enjoy AD! 
