lost inspiration......

it has been so long since i had opened this account. i wasnt coming often but now i am thinking of coming more often..... so today i had an appointment to get a new hearing mold. i like going to that office because the girl who does the hearing test is also HOH and that makes me feel more comfortable =) ... while i was siting there i remember when i was a little girl and getting my hearing check (about 15+ years ago). my parents were inside with me while i was being tested. i was trying so hard to hear every noise that i was being tested so i would pass it and my parents started laught at me and said "i cant believe you are so deaf" i dont remember even responding to that.... remembering that made me so emotional and wanted to cry. i asked myself about why my parents made fun of me. shouldnt our parents be protecting us instead of making fun of us? i am HOH and i am not proud of it i dont like the way people indifference when they see my hearing aids. i dont know how to convince myself that its not my problem but theirs....