Again, it is rainy and chilly. Despite living in Maryland for 10 years, I can never get used to chilly days in May after growing up in one of the hottest cities in the USA. According to my friends in Phx, it has already been 105 plus degrees for a week there. To me, May represents warm and sunny days but this year, May seems intent on staying gloomy and chilly. Forecast calls for sunny skies tmw but with temps in the 60s. Dunno if that's good or not.

I feel detached from Alldeaf due to the Byrdie incident. I guess I really thought he was a friend and knowing that he is not dead makes me miss his posts here on AD even more than if he was dead. It is like being forbidden from having a huge lolipop and it is within my reach. I guess it would have been easier if he actually died. Someone told me that I am in need of closure but as the days go by, I am starting to accept the fact that there may never be closure. Hopefully as time passes, the wounds...

Just feeling blah today but not ready to go to bed. I should go to bed now but I always feel like I will be missing out on something. What should I do? Oh, so many decisions!!!