The beginning....
Posted 02-26-2009 at 09:15 PM by November Gypsy
Well, I figured I may as well start this thing. I have no idea if anyone will read it or not, but maybe that doesn't really matter. I enjoy writing, whatever the case. I think going deaf is a very powerful and life-changing (obviously) experience. How I deal with it varies from day to day. Some days (like today) I feel frightened and isolated. It's almost as if I have gone from a world that I at least sort of understood to a world where I not only don't speak the language, I don't have the skills to do so. Maybe everyone feels this way. There are other days in which I feel that I can simply be who I am, no matter what I can or cannot hear. After all, I have always been 'different'. I have never quite fit into the mold. It's not that I don't like other people. I do...but I am very shy, disorganized, forgetful, uncertain. And then I can be very happy digging around in the dirt making things grow, or grooming a dog, or writing a poem. Ah, yes. Poetry. No, I'm not going to ask anyone to read it. It's just something I do. I wrote a poem on going deaf a little while ago, and I was shocked by it. I don't always realize what I feel until I write it.
You don't want to read my life story, and, any way, I don't want to tell it. It is enough to know, I suppose, that I have never been comfortable in a grocery store (and malls are hell for me), but that I am contented and a peace when surrounded by people I am comfortable with, or by books that, like old friends, I can read without opening. It is enough to know that I am more comfortable with the world in it's natural state, then the world as we humans have made it. It is enough to know that I love humans, despite this, and that, if I could, I would change the world to make it better for those who cannot defend or care for themselves. It is enough, I suppose, that I am me.
You don't want to read my life story, and, any way, I don't want to tell it. It is enough to know, I suppose, that I have never been comfortable in a grocery store (and malls are hell for me), but that I am contented and a peace when surrounded by people I am comfortable with, or by books that, like old friends, I can read without opening. It is enough to know that I am more comfortable with the world in it's natural state, then the world as we humans have made it. It is enough to know that I love humans, despite this, and that, if I could, I would change the world to make it better for those who cannot defend or care for themselves. It is enough, I suppose, that I am me.
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Ahhh... Music to my eyes. It's so nice to read something that I can truly relate to.Posted 03-03-2009 at 05:13 PM by stellar2146
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November Gypsy -
You certainly have a wonderful way of expressing yourself with you writing. That in and of itself has therapeutic value.
Are you aware that there are other communication options available to you and your family? Have you had the opportunity to explore Cued Speech/Cued English? National Cued Speech Association
I am not suggesting that you not learn ASL, learning ASL is a wonderful goal.
Cueing is a tool that provides you the opportunity to use English visually, which you already know as does your husband. When one spouse is loosing their hearing, it comes with all kinds of stuff, as you are already familiar with.
If you wish to explore this more, please feel free to pm me.
Regards,
loml
Posted 03-03-2009 at 05:35 PM by loml
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Actually, i have "something" that "western" people like you might not be familiar. But, i am used to do meditation to heal myself...or at least, reducing the pain in head/ear. I do meditation since i was teenager, so i can tell it's the "best place" to be if you wanna be yourself. I,m not saying this is the best method, it's just, when your ear suddenly deaf only in one night, who's going to cheer you but yourself right ? Well, everyone has their own way to express themselv, including you.
So keep on great activites. I salute youPosted 03-10-2009 at 10:15 AM by tommys
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Cued speech was not and is not intended for everyday language use. Learn another sign language, SEE PSE ASL or even just plain ole fingerspelling.
Suspects LOML is a paid cued speech promoter lol..,
SmilePosted 03-21-2009 at 04:24 AM by SouthFella
