Why am I here?
Posted 02-07-2009 at 12:59 AM by Braydens Mom
Why am I here? Why have I chosen to visit this site?
Several reasons. I want to be accepted for who I am.
I am afraid of what is happening in my life. I have always been a very strong person. I help others. Thats what I do. I enjoy it. Now I am facing several things that scare the heck out of me.
Almost five years ago, I had my last child. Brayden. He was small, early.. but other than that all seemed normal. Milestones started to be reached as normal...until six months. Then he kinda back slid. By 9 months, he was advanced again..Strange. Kept telling the doctors there was something not right about this. They patted my hand.. every child is different. He was walking at 9 months... by 12 months, he could not walk anymore...
By 18 months, he had lost most of the words he had learned... We began the long process of trying to diagnos his Autism.
Skip ahead 4 years... We are now working with the local school for the deaf. He is Flourishing! Each new sign opens such a doorway of communication. He has "normal" hearing.. just can't filter everything out.
Now, with dealing, learning, teaching my son...I find out that I need to have surgery. I am scared as to what can/will happen if something happens to me.
Besides the surgery... I have been dealing with other health issues. One is I am afraid I am losing my hearing. I tried to tell my family this, but they just dismiss it. I plan to go to an Audi soon.. after my surgery. I am scared. Where do I fit in? I have always been the strong one.. who is there to help me?
Well...just rambling..., Trying to sort out my feelings..
Several reasons. I want to be accepted for who I am.
I am afraid of what is happening in my life. I have always been a very strong person. I help others. Thats what I do. I enjoy it. Now I am facing several things that scare the heck out of me.
Almost five years ago, I had my last child. Brayden. He was small, early.. but other than that all seemed normal. Milestones started to be reached as normal...until six months. Then he kinda back slid. By 9 months, he was advanced again..Strange. Kept telling the doctors there was something not right about this. They patted my hand.. every child is different. He was walking at 9 months... by 12 months, he could not walk anymore...
By 18 months, he had lost most of the words he had learned... We began the long process of trying to diagnos his Autism.
Skip ahead 4 years... We are now working with the local school for the deaf. He is Flourishing! Each new sign opens such a doorway of communication. He has "normal" hearing.. just can't filter everything out.
Now, with dealing, learning, teaching my son...I find out that I need to have surgery. I am scared as to what can/will happen if something happens to me.
Besides the surgery... I have been dealing with other health issues. One is I am afraid I am losing my hearing. I tried to tell my family this, but they just dismiss it. I plan to go to an Audi soon.. after my surgery. I am scared. Where do I fit in? I have always been the strong one.. who is there to help me?
Well...just rambling..., Trying to sort out my feelings..
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