no offense but... it's kind of hard to read what you're saying. it's incoherent!!
however - before I say anything, I speak frankly and crude - I don't sugarcoat anything I say. That's why a lot of people, in an odd way, actually respected and valued my opinions because I give them a cold, hard truth in whatever the situation they're in (usually bad) and it usually help them a lot. If people get in deep shit situation that they want to get out (relationship, legal problem, life, whatever), it usually takes a big slap on their faces for them to realize the situation and take action that they did not want to take. Most of their friends would just encourage them (false hope) or sugarcoat thing or say something useless like "it's ok. it's your choice. whatever you decide, I'll be with you, etc."
I'm not a mean person but just drama-free guy so forgive me if I'm being frank and crude.
anyway... from what I gather... NO he is not your boyfriend at all until you meet him in person and actually held hands together. As far as I'm concerned, he could be a jerk or a lonely person who enjoys telling lies or being smooth to anybody online. I'm sorry but "online-dating" him for a long time does not qualify him as your boyfriend. You need to stop fooling yourself. Honey, if he's "too busy" and dragging this on for months, he ain't coming at all. He's toying with you. I don't care if he's such a sweetheart and understands you well. I'm not being judgmental but if your mom is telling you what to do all the time, maybe it means you're not matured and not ready to do handle things responsibly yourself.
Try to make every effort to meet a guy from around you. I understand there's nobody in your town that you like. It happens. but unless you live in a farm house with nothing around for 100 miles... go with friend to club/bar/party/etc. and talk to anybody that interests you. You're 26 years old. I'm 26 years old too and I'm HOH. You should be comfortable with yourself to talk to anybody. I understand that your confidence would get shot down
if one person said something mean to you but don't let that ruin you!. just be confident and meet people and keep meeting until you find one great guy. You try on many clothes at store before you find one that fits you well, right? same thing
keep your head up and grin!
