Yes I have Depression since the age of 14 yrs old due to the fact that my dad died from AIDS and people shun my family thinking we all have AIDS but it is not so. you know back then people didnt know any better after all they didnt research in that. Plus my mom stopped buying christmas gifts and birthday gifts after dad died. i hate christmas. it always made me depressed!!!! My mom put me in counseling and I got better and I was not on any medications.
Then after the death of my twin sons in 1995 I got depressed again and didnt want to get out of the bed. I was sent to dr and dr prescribed me medications. it helped somewhat and I turned my life around and was able to go back to working. After my ex left me for other lady I really got depressed worst and wanted to kill myself. They took me home so they could watch me but I escaped by walking drunk on the road back to my apt. it was a LONG walk... 17 miles.. believe it or not! LOL.. I was crazy back then..
anyway.. in 2002 after death of my infant daughter, I got depressed and blow up easily and was moody all times. I was put on medication for that. I got better but I am never the same again as my mom said you are not the same as before because I have anxiety attacks and panic attacks. panic attacks are mild but anxiety attack I have it bad! Always nervous to drive car and too many people at the store. I couldnt breath and I felt stuck and had to get out!
I was able to walk in woods in the past but now? I cant walk there cuz there are SNAKES unless it is winter I will walk there, fine no plms. i am paranoid of them badly! thinking snakes are everywhere..
I am still depressed.. Nothing new.. Losing custody of my son to his father. being alone. and moving back home to my moms last July after separating from my husband and seeing my mom being sick and having to deal with my sister who have bioplar disorder .. yelling at me and all that. I never feel comfy here. I need to get out of here so I can be MYSELF. sigh...