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Originally posted by deafdyke
They are still pals, and I know Joce still loves Amanda deeply..as do I. I 'll never forget when Joce was on duty at the desk Amanda used to wait until she went off duty and come down and they'd go to sleep together!  I think Joce may have started the process of just being friends with Amanda. I forgot to ask her about Amanda the last time I saw her. I hope I get to see her over the summer...hopefully I'll be returning to college in Sept and can help Joce! I know Joce is taking some summer courses so maybe she was depressed over her breakup with Amanda and let her grades slide. ..I shall never forget Amanda announcing every two seconds "Deafdyke's got a crush on Joce!" to the ENTIRE DORM!!!!! Then again I shall never forget having Amanda chase after me after I was joke-flirting with Joce! That was FUNNY!!!!!!!! I hope I can return to that in Sept. I miss college so damn much!!!!
Yeah, but I was PETRIFIED to tell Maureen, especially as she was a VERY devout Catholic! Plus I was so damn confused b/c our summer camp was very touchy-feely and affectionate...I remember the counselors used to give us goodnight hugs and saying "I love you" was just an everyday thing...Oh yes, I am a popular with the girls....even my straight friends who think I am hetro tease me about how I am so popular with the women and that I could probaly get out of a 5-5-50 (punishment for alcohol in the dorms, which means that you get five weekends home, five hours of community service and a $50.00 fine) by knocking on Jill or Carrie's doors
I wish I could be out to all my friends but, I just don't know how some of them would react....most of my friends are hearing, and it's hard enough to make friends when you're already different, and I just don't want to lose them. Maybe someday I'll tell OB, and Dani and the girls...but I don't think I'll be telling them any time soon. I wish homophobia didn't exist at all! I wish I could just be out to everyone...I wish I could hold hands with a girl without being afraid that I'd get beaten up.
I wish sometimes that I was straight....I wish I was attracted to boys instead of loving women....I mean I don't have to worry about birth control or anything...but still I would give anything to be straight! [/b]
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Yeah I unddy what you mean.. I hope Joce will be better in summertime tho. I'm sure she won't ever stopping love Amanda tho. Poor ya about Amanda accounce to the entire of dorm abt u crush on Joce
Dayum I know what u mean. Women r easy attrached to me too. Oh well lol. Just take yer time until u feel it's right time to admit. Yeah I unddy what u mean about holding a girl without them thinking other way.