Thank you everyone for your support posts here
but I can't get it over... I am still shock and cannot accept that Kim is really gone for good.
We (4) together pat her and look at her... Of course 3 cats come and smell her... and know that Kim is not around anymore.
We shared many photos of her and talk about her all the night until our bedtime... We cover small white blanket where Kim alway slept on her in shoe box and put her on her favorite place on our yard to prepare for bury her before we go bed but we can't sleep... and keep on repeat to talk about her... and laugh together what and how Kim did for past 3 years... cried together...
Next day, this morning before I leave for work... My hubby & I went to see Kim at her favorite place on our yard... Her body is hard... I look at her... and told my hubby to not bury Kim yet until I am back from work...
My boys told us that they want to help us to dig... They will prepare it after breakfast and wait until I am back from work and then bury her together...
It's really hurt...
We accept and prepare for few years that Sussi will go anytime due her age but Kim... It's so suddenly to us... Why, why, why us???? We NEVER hit animals when we are on the road... We alway make sure that animals are not on the road... frighten them off... slow driving... etc... Why affect us when we are animal lover and protect their safety... Why us?
My hubby said that he wish to not call Kim nasty name like that "bad" or "wicked" cat because she is not friendly cat to them... bite and scratch them... I am the one, Kim trust and love to... It's up to Kim if she want let anyone to touch her... jump on their lap.... until she is enough then bite them...
She is humor of sense/humor and like to tease Sussi... and tried to pinch Sussi's food... Kim hissed her own daughters... sometimes she play with them and Sussi... sometimes fights... I miss Kim and her wild humor... Kim alway slept on Alan's bed since her 2 daughters slept at us... Sussi slept on couch in our bedroom.
My both boys pick some pictures of Kim to have in their bedroom.. They cried... I told them to keep Kim in their good memory.
That's my last to enjoy Kim is sit on the kitchen chair and cuddle her...was our breakfast time... - watch us eating... An around noon, Kim escaped out of house... My hubby spot her on her favorite place and want to get me to carry her back to my house after finish to water the garden... It was around between few minutes and 5 minutes... suddenly ... My hubby kept saying that he wish to get me to pick her up first instead of wait until he finish with water at garden... Danny kept on say that he should ran after her quickly as he can...
I told them that nobody know what and how happeend later... Please stop to feel guilty... it's happened... nobody knows and smell that it will happen to Kim... Please try to keep her in good memory.
I look at Flecky, Kim's daughter. Her movement is same as her mother... I really miss Kim to death...