Originally Posted by Reba
If you've been "through counsellors" and are still having problems, then apparently you are still a work in progress. Don't give up on the professional counseling help.
Trying too hard means focusing and stressing too much on one goal. You have to relax and not act so needy with women. We can sense desperation, and are generally not comfortable with that.
Keep working with your counselors to resolve your life issues first. Then you can relax better in society.
I believe you haven't got what I mean to say. I said I wasn't trying too hard. I got other things to do rather than just focusing on one thing and being desperate paedophile like my ex gf. I am not desperate. I am seeking 'right ways of life'. Not 'limited ways of life'. I am not handicapped. The way the world treats me is being handicapped.
I see people including women as bullies. Internal bullies. Do I need to work on that for counselling to make them not to bully me any more? There are no such actions for me to cause this bully from this. Think about it.
The way I do, is not causing problems. Never done crime. Never done bad things. I never intend to sin to become a sin. I believe in trust, right ways of life, proper lifestyle. Guidance to counselling does not make this work. It has to be other people, including women to fix this problem since I haven't done anything.
Why it has to be so hard to communicate when I am happy like right now? I always get told that people see me not happy while I am smiling and being bright and passionate about things? Well the answer is, I can see they are not happy. Quite most of them aren't happy! Pretty much at my uni! I gotta say 'wow!'.
I am not trying to be retarded here. I am trying my best to how to put the words together of how I can attribute the understandings of what I am experiencing the problems. I never had a problem of myself. I don't go and say 'Hey, hows your %&%$ day going?', or intend to road rage, or go to change my life to become an alcoholic or drugger, or rape a women or destroy a building. Who is that? Not me! Why people sense me in wrong way?
Oh come on! Look at my life! SUCCESSFUL! I am finishing my degree this year, I am buffed up at the gym (about to go after posting this message), I have money (but that isn't really important), I got accepted to do working holiday visa to US for 12months from December this year and I have a true loving family! I have good CV! Great qualifications. So what kind of person is this? Does to take to heart to blame my aspie traits and hearing loss? You CANNOT stop these kind of people with hearing loss and aspie traits like this! That is cruel, discriminating, violence, racism and that etc.
End of rant. Off to gym and do some bulk muscles working.