Originally Posted by coolgirlspyer90

thanks guys, I am kind of feeling better after rehersal. But i'm still kind of hurt after this morning. because I know that most guys ask the girl to a dance which was kind of a tradition from whatever. But most girls at my school now ask a guy to the homecoming dance or prom or whatever too. Soo, I'm actually trying not to make a big deal out of it. I have more guy friends than last year and more girlfriends than middle school. And in health class today; i have to admit, as a class, we had to make our desks in a circle and from the past first week of school we were learning and talking about self-esteem.

And my health teacher had us do a piece of blank white paper and fold it in half, and write our name on the front half of it. That way we pass the paper around to the next person to the other writing positive good things about what they think about the person on their paper. And Mine said: "good musician, very nice, nice hair" and one girl thought i was pretty and the most thing that made me smile was somebody wrote in saying: "you and me both know sign language + that's pretty rad!" And I'm learning to move on on more important things like education, trying to stay in touch with good friends, trying to have good grades to stay in the marching band, trying to be responsible, and trying to be a mature 15 year old girl (did i mention i'm 15 now?? yay!)

But still, its hard becasue it might show that jay likes another girl. Which probably is. And everytime i walk around going to my classes, I see girl and a guy holding hands, puting their arms around their waists, etc. Plus I saw my ex-friend who told me that she was moving to michigan--didn't move to michigan at all. And I'm still sick of it how people still don't treat me the right way as they're suppose to be treated that way.

But at least i have better friends in the marching band. Who gave me a hug when i told my new girlfriends about jay and yeah they gave me a hug. And my friend told me: "I bawled over a guy who I asked to go to homecoming for like a week. But then I got over it. Don't cry over a guy who means nothing to you. it's more important to have fun in life and gather up all the good times while you're in high school." And i think thats true.